Pea-Headge-Dee...a song maybe?

Ok...I dont know where to start. There's a lot of unexpected things that happen this past few weeks. From Sydney that I plan to go turns out to be Southampton that I'm heading too. How on the earth that did this happen? Fated. Full stop. Huhu... I pray to Allah that this will be the right path I'm walking through. Hopefully. Insyallah I will not regret what I have choose and I will never look back!!

I need to emphasize here that my FRIENDS are those that really inspired me until up to this stage. Without them, my life would be crazy enough that u cant imagine. They're the one that help me going through the hell of this study leave procedure. My housemates and my UMT's colleagues, you owned my big thanks... ignore all the english mistakes...but more than happy if anyone could correct it...hehe

Oh...and not to forget, my family too...especially Qi ;)


I will miss Malaysia :)

What the What

i thought that doing being phd is already tough, didnt expect that pre-phd is tough too...sigh~

Im lost in my little world...again.

Yes, I think my theory that i blog during im stress is definetly true.

And now, I totally just want to be a housewife. Eh? haha. What a mundane person I am. I miss homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

I hate the fact that I miss home, and my siblings too. We fought if we meet each other but still i miss them. I hope they find their path to glory.... I hope Lina and Luqman will get good scores for their exam. But dont feel down if it's not like what you expected because

1. you're lazy (haha...just joking here)
2. It's Allah wills


And do always remember,
"every cloud has a silver lining"

Zero idea

I have no idea for this entry but since it been left for awhile, I thought of just jotting anythings eventhough it's just a story bout an ant. what the heck im talking about here?? im just staring blankly at this entry. haha. i'll continue later.





But, what i know is that i miss my family so badly eventhough i had just come back from bangi a few days ago :((

I am sick

I am utterly sick of the world

I feel utterly sick amidst the harmony of my country

why??

I dont know the answer too

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end.

Post Eid 2010

I love the me right now

Uhh... I really dont know. My life is totally going upside down now but still not critical that my head would explode at anytime. I am messed up. Well, is it me to be blamed? Was I that dumb not to be well-prepared? Absolutely not! It's all fate. We plan, but Allah knows the rest.

It's all about furthering my study abroad. Why on the earth is it d**n hard to have my study abroad?? Be patient asma' and mind your language please. First, Alhamdulillah I already got the MOHE's scholarship to further abroad. The problem is that it's going to expire by 1 December 2010. For god's sake, cant MOHE be more relevant? Initially I was planning to study somewhere else not in Sydney and it turns out that MOHE didnt approve it.

So, I choose Sydney instead. The problem is Sydney has specific date to commence which will be either in July or March. Since I applied the scholarship in end of June, obviously I cant enroll for the July intake and have to go for the March intake the next year. And that surely will automatically burn the quota i'm holding right now. Ha!Ha! But, I believe that Allah knows the best. So, no worries.

Sometimes, life wont be that easily for us. Challenges, obstacles and etc. will teach us the meaning of strong and patient.

La tahzan guys! This whole world is only TEMPORARY. Be scared for the PERMANENT. And im the one that need to be reminded of that :(

A life without challenge would be like

going to school without lessons to learn.

Challenges come not to depress or get you down,

but to master and to grow and to unfold your abilities

Life is a bit hard these few days

Kinda...

hmm...

Salam Eidul Fitr

Bila ada kata terselip dusta,

ada sikap membekas lara dan langkah menoreh luka,

semoga masih ada maaf tersisa.

Taqabbalallahu minna waminkum.

Minal aidhin wal faidzin,

mohon maaf zahir dan batin

Only 6 days more left

A potrait of mona lisa can be seen hanging high up on the white wall in my dean's office and definitely it's just the fraud one or a forgery made by a local street artist. haha. what im mumbling up here. I surely have no idea what to write down for this entry. What i truly feel now is that i'm sad that ramdhan will leave me in 6 days more time. And I feel I am not in my utmost spiritual mode.

I had already had break in my fasting. I hope that I can resume it back this night. It's the night of 25th. the night of the odds. Ya Allah...Ya Hayyu...Ya Qayyum...Ya Latif.... And I dont know whether I have another opportunity to see the next ramadhan. sad~

Fragile

I really love this song. Have a meaningful lyrics

Opick - Rapuh

detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidup

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dadaku harap hanya
diriMu yang bertahta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu

powered by lirik lagu indonesia

Nearly miss my flight

I nearly missed my flight to Kuala Terengganu this morning. Alhamdulillah, I managed to hop in. But all that already requires about 110km/hr of my running speed. I nearly burned up all my calorie intake. I feel like fainting as I step in the plane. So exhausted.


I really dont know whether it's my fault or my dad's fault. He told me yesterday that we'll be going to LCCT at 5.15am. Ok, fine then. But at 5.30am this morning, he's still in the TOILET. Oh my. Since, he's still in the toilet, I also took the chance to go to the toilet too but just for a few seconds (ok...for few minutes i think). And we departed from home something around 5.35am or 5.40am.


I arrived at the LCCT at 6.15am. I rushed to the self-check in counter. But, it was not allowed since it's already 45minutes to the departure time. I was frustrated. I ran quickly to find the luggage counter since Terengganu doesnt have anymore it's counter for check in. To my shock, it was a very long queue. Sigh. I prayed hard in my heart that time for Allah to ease my journey. I headed to the air asia's staff and ask her regarding my ticket. She ask me to queue up. It's already 6.30. so, i just followed and wait patiently hoping that i'm still able to catch up my flight.


Alhamdulillah, it's my turn as i waited for just few minutes. The staff quickly passed my boarding ticket and asked me to immediately go to the gate.


Now, I have to pass another long queue for the security check-up. What-the what. I have no choice but to cut the line. I asked politely to the person in front to let me go through since my flight is at 7.00am and it was 6.45am already. He smiled back and nodded back to showed that I'm allowed to do so. What a relief. As soon as I passed the security check-up, I heard couples of names were announced which included my name too. I ran like crazy. And the running didnt end up yet since I have to ran again to the plane. My plane was on the very last lane at the end of the LCCT i think. That's so crazy. Fortunately, I was not alone running at time. There was about 4-5 peoples altogether running like crazy. Haha.

That was really a total new experience for me. I dont want it to happen for the second time. I hope it'll be the last. Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah.

Back to work

Time do fly fast here compared when I'm in Terengganu. I'll be going back to Terengganu tomorrow morning and hopefully will be arriving at 7.55am. Haha... sorry dad cause you have to drive me early in the dawn to LCCT tomorrow. And I supposed to be back at work tomorrow.

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I went to PKNS Bangi this afternoon along with my lil sis (but she's big than me :p) and also my mom. We were browsing for some raya stuffs and i end-up buying 2 tudungs 'hijabs' that cost me rm100. Oh my God... My mom said she can get one abaya with that value. But, I like it... heheh. Just once in a while right. I think it's worth it. Both tudungs are grey in color. I just bought the tudung first and i'm doing it in a reversing way. One supposed to buy 'baju' first and then buy a tudung that suits the baju's color. But I'm doing it the other way round. My mom just gave me a small sigh. haha....

credit to: Anggun Tudung
this is for illustration only

I'll have some things to be done tomorrow. First, I need to follow-up Dr Nasir regarding my referee form. Second, I have to check my UMT's inbox. Third, I need to confirm my convocation date since I need to book my flight ticket. Fourth, play FB. Fifth, play FB and etc. haha. Sixth, I need to produce one paper regarding nutritional knowledge and last but not least, updated my own nutritional knowledge.

Merdeka

Tomorrow is our Independence Day! Malaysia's 53rd Independence Day. So guys, i hope we really truly know what independence is all about ;)

Pushed myself to IDP

It's been quite a long time since i really put myself in writing a fully lengthy entry. Well, I'm going to start blogging everyday to get myself prepared for any upcoming English test. I got few minutes here to write an entry since all the toilets in my house is fully occupied. I mean my parent's house. Yes, I'm in Bangi now. The best place ever. Terengganu? Naa...except for kopok leko n beaches, it still cant beat Bangi. I know i'm a bit bias here but hey, Bangi, just say it. Everything is there. Most and foremost, it's the garden of knowledge! But truly it is because i grew up here and i love it here. Huhu...leave that beside.

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Today, early in the morning i went to UPM to see Dr Nasir and Dr Rokiah regarding my referee form. Unfortunately none of them were there. Dr Nasir was on leave while Dr Rokiah went to Umrah. Sigh (this is the firts sigh). Never mind because I already expected that. I left the form with an envelope attached to it. I'll call them later. Ehh..why didnt i call them in the first place?? because i still need to give them the form regardless of their presence. Soon after that, i met Ein and mun chieng. Hehe...my old buddies during my study in UPM. I cant stay long there because I have to rush to IDP in KL. I took the KTM to KL central. it's been a while since my last time using the KTM. It's the first time experiencing the center coach which is only for women only. I arrived at UKM's KTM around 10.50am and guess what, I waited about 1 hour for the train. Sigh (my second sigh). The train to KL Rawang had some problems in Tiroi and I nearly give up and decided to go back home. But somehow, i dont have much time anymore. By hook or by crook, i need to go to IDP to submit my phd application form. the due date is in october. now it is already september. not to forget, we'll having raya holiday and all the stuffs going around, i'm not sure whether i have time to go back home in k.l to settle all this things. so, i waited patiently and soon at 11.37am (look, i definitely remember the exact time as i really hope i could arrived before lunch hour) the super-duper KTM arrived proudly. Huh. With all the people, i pushed myself in the train. Just to note that this is during fasting kay.

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As soon as i arrived KL central had to change to LRT to go to KLCC. LRT is quite ok since not that packed as the KTM's train. Looking at my watch at that time it was already 12 something. Arghh...it's almost going to be lunch hour. my legs to began to tremble. then, just for 3 minutes, the LRT arrived and i reached KLCC at 12.45 noon. It's not there yet, I have to walk out of the KLCC because the IDP is exactly on the top of the British Council building. I arrived at 1 pm sharp. I bumped to this one lady in the lift. I was lucky because she's one of the IDP staff. so, she brought me in the office eventhough it's lunch hour. So, i told her i want to meet with Tina and to my shock, Tina was on leave too. Sigh (third time sigh). i'm the one to be blamed here because i didnt contact her first right. heheh. but i dont have time to wait for her on this wednesday. i have to go back to terengganu. So, i leaved all the documents required as Tina mentioned in her email. Got all my documents certified by the IDP and i handed my application form. Application fee waived ok. So, at 1.45pm I went back home. and i was so exhausted (seb baek x pose). The end of my journey for today. hope for the best for tomorrow. *wink*

Ramadhan kareem

Alhamdulillah Im still breathing until now. I am still here to face this year ramadhan. However this year ramadhan is different from before. It'll be my first time fasting in Terengganu. Last night, I went to Masjid Tok Jembal to perform the terawikh along with my housemates, Fiza and Nora. It was a new ambience. But still,

--- to be continued ---

System down

Dear blog, it's been awhile right. I have a lot to tell but as usual I'm not a good story-teller. My bad. Sigh. Arghh... I am seriously in a confusing mode which make me look like an idiot. I'm seriously LOST right now. I dont know what to do.

Mixed feelings

i really dunno my current mode right now
have lot of things to be taken care of
but none of them did i care about
and when the time really comes to it's end
i feel like crazy
haha...deserves me right
waka~waka~

after 3 months in the land of Lekor
i finally got the chance to go back home
and yes,
there's no place like home
i miss home

today,
-i have JKCB meeting in the afternoon
(i like to gamble things around me...uhuhu. I am surely positive that I can be rejected! But at least, i shoot for it. maybe i can be considered to be qued up in the waiting list, right?)
-have taklimat on new students orientation (i dont like this)

well, this is totally me in a totally miserable mind

It's now middle of the year

hmmm...well theres' nothing to update
but I just can't stand any longer to look at the same old entries
now, it's June
and it means that we already in the middle year of 2010
so, have all my 2010 resolution has been fulfilled?
hoho...some of it has been accomplished, some are on the way and some are still hanging high in the air
I've received some replies from the universities regarding my phd application
but the most thing that made me worried is UMT's quota availabilities for futhering abroad
*sigh*

~...There's Always a Silver Lining ...~ so chear up ;)

Wow, it's almost 3 months that I inhabited the land of Terengganu
Thanks to all my friends that keep following me up
Thanks to Hariss and Faridah for visiting me here
I am so greatful to have all of you as my buddy
and yes, to my lovely housemates too :)
hey, why Im doing this weird dedication??

a few days ago
the most current issue is regarding the the Gaza-bound convoy
at least that keep especially the muslims' eyes awake
and show to the world that the zionist will kill anybody regardless you are muslim or not
well, im not going to explain the details
please find the details elsewhere
and do find a reliable information
and i also do have something to share

No title

just few more days left for May and it means that I've been in terengganu about one month and a half. Many things had happen in this period. But yesterday was the best until now. My parents came and brought my car along too. That was definitely the two most things i ever wanted, my parents and my car. heheh... i spend the whole night with my parents. we stayed in Dara Inn. Dara Inn is owned by my housemate's future father in law. Well, she will be married in end of this month. Congratulation to my housemate. I've to stop now. Got lots of works to do. Cewahh...

Home resistance

i miss HOME again *sigh*

Is your secret safe tonight?
And are we out of sight?
Or will our world come tumbling down?

Will they find our hiding place?
Is this our last embrace?
Or will the walls start caving in?

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it should've been right
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Let our hearts ignite
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Are we digging a hole?
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
This is outta control

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
It could never last
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Must erase it fast
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it could've been right
(It could be wrong, could be...)

Love is our resitance
They keep us apart and they won't stop breaking us down
And hold me, our lips must always be sealed

If we live our life in fear
I'll wait a thousand years
Just to see you smile again

Quell your prayers for love and peace
You'll wake the thought police
We can hide the truth inside

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it should've been right
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Let our hearts ignite
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Are we digging a hole?
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
This is outta control

(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
It could never last
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
Must erase it fast
(It could be wrong, could be wrong)
But it could've been right
(It could be wrong, could be...)

Love is our resistance!
They keep us apart and won't stop breaking us down
And hold me, our lips must always be sealed

The night has reached its end
We can't pretend
We must run
We must run
It's time to run

Take us away from here
Protect us from further harm
Resistance!

It's good to blog

i blog when i'm usually in a bad mood
or when i'm in a stressful stage
it is so rare for me to blog when i'm in a happy mode
so,
there u have
a blog with all emotional, low motivation, self-destruction, etc entries

but,

sometimes it's kinda good to have a blog
at least u can spill out all your problems
even though ppl wont bother to read it
it has it's own therapeutic effect on me
i just dont like to burden others with all my silly problems
ehh...but sometimes i do (or most of the times? ahaha)
sometimes, i can scrutinize myself calmly
and try to figure out ways
to solve all my problems
during blogging




Yosh...babai

Down to earth??

blog, i hate myself for being too easily depressed. i can get myself easily down. 'down' in my dictionary means really really down where everything around me will become gloomy and miserable. and yes, i am so down at this right moment. i am down because of just few small stupid things (mind your language) which is not something normal people will even bother to be depressed of. am i not normal here? uwaa.... i know it is not easy to get what u wanna want but it's that i wanna want!! (sentence seems weirdo, huh). as-sobrun minal iman dear. it's easy to say...hoho. it comes back to our iman. why i am depressed? first and foremost, it's about my thesis. i've done the correction but then *&&^@@$#$#%$^%^ happened. second, because ^*$%#^%&%^*@ and last because *&(&^*%$%$&. and those were the reasons... just those from pluto can only understand this language. yup, i'm from pluto not from mars or venus.

this is totally a rambling crap.

a brand new world

"Four things do not come back: the spoken word, the sped arrow, the past life, and the neglected opportunity". ----Arabic proverb

so, grab the opportunity and fight till the last blood...ehh..is it right?

blog, i'm in a new brand world right now. i'm starting to enjoy it. i've met new colleagues and found new friends. i loved some of the foods there; there's pari goreng. crabs with salted egg, sotong goreng, nasi minyak, nasi kerabu, nasi lemak berlauk, nasi dagang, all served for breakfast, and many more. and kopok leko is a must. i dont know whether i can diet there. i didnt bring my cam along to take pictures of it. next time maybe...

but the best part is, i have my own office...haha. a nice one. i loved it.

this n3 is totally nonsense. it just my own way to push away my bored-ness

but bangi will always remain the best forever....

i'm not a crybaby...or am i?

uwaa....

i miss home so much
but i'll never will ever tell them that
i feel like calling them
but i can't
if i called
everything will burst out
yeah...

i miss my friends
i miss my car

even though i put a big smile on my face
but the real fact is
i truly miss home
please Ya Allah
gimme strength

and now,
i'm in another confusion state
to go for it or to leave it...
hmm...

wow blog, i'm already being here for 6 days

n3 ringkas n padat

alhamdulillah.............

syukur sgt2x pdNya
aku dh lulus ngn minor correction

mekasih umi n abah
adik2
jiran2

time kasih kat SV and Co-Sv
mekasih sbb sume dtg mase viva
terharu~~

thnks kwn2 sume
yg telah byk menyokong
memberikan kate2 perangsang
sayang korang sume

smlm adlh hr terindah buatku
2 april 2010
rase cam melayang-layang pun ade
mcm x percaye pun ade
ahaha...


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aku bersujud pdNya

To u that i heart most

mom n dad,

sorry to make u sad
sorry to burden u
sorry to talk back
sorry to make you unpleasant
sorry...sorry...sorry
forgive me....

i don't know how much time left for us

but,
I'll never ever will give up
and will always try to make both of u happy

mom n dad,

sorry again to make u sad
I meant it
I know eventho' both of u never mention 'bout it
I am truly sorry
I am sorry mom
I am sorry dad


mom n dad,

i .........
me ......

and,
i,
love both of u from the bottom of my heart :(




silent monologue,
running in rain while facing an uphill battle (end march, 2010)

A deep sorrow

Wow...the title is too spooky for me. And it seems so not me. haha... Blog, i have a lot to share as lots of things had happened this past few days. But i don't know where to start.

well, lets begin with story 1;

Sorrow. That's the best word to describe myself right now. Why? I don’t know myself blog. My dear close friend, Hariss, had came last Friday and slept over for two days at my house (I mean my parents’ house :P). We went shopping on Saturday and I was surprised by a gift she gave me. There was this department full of branded handbags and I just have this window-shopping-glancing through all over these handbags. Suddenly, Hariss came to me and asked which one I like the most? Well, without a thought, I just pointed out straight to a lovely maroon handbag. And u know what blog, she said I’ll give it to you as a present. I was shocked. I don’t know what to say. I love the bag but I don’t know whether to say yes or not. Ahaha… well, of course I had said yes. Ahaha… She said it was a gift for me as I will start working soon. Thanks Hariss. You’re the best buddy I have and I heart you. Frankly speaking, I’ll be missing all my friends here and I don’t know whether I’ll survive at my new place or not. But life must go on. I can’t just sit in this comfort zone!!

HEY me!! what's the connection between sorrow and the story above??? *sigh*

Blog, I'll continue later. I suddenly lost the mood to write. AGAIN, this is a totally crap entry.

Mocha dear? Err... no thanks

I learnt my lesson. Use you’re brain and don’t let you’re saliva makes the decision. If u can’t bear with heavy caffeine what more if it is an extreme mocha.

Yesterday afternoon was super extremely hot. I was extremely thirsty and exhausted too. While waiting for my poster to be printed, I thought of having myself some cold stuffs. Just a few walks a step; I saw this super delicious beverages café. There were a lot of choices. You just name it. Everything was nice. I don’t know which want to choose. Without noticing, I already had myself enjoying this yummy extreme mocha. Yeah…it is the extreme one. I had no idea at all why on the earth did I choose that one. Not that the café doesn’t have fruit juices or soft drinks, it’s just my saliva. Blaming my saliva…hahaa. And that evening, I caught myself a really bad headache. I swallowed the panadol but still the pain was there. I knew that heavy caffeine is one of my food taboos, it is just that I can’t stand the whipped cream which was waving happily to me :p

And there you go, I can’t sleep that night until 4 something. I’ve done sort of things, zikr, read the lost symbol (which was only a page until I knew that I don’t have any idea what I was reading about), surf internet, discussed politics with huda bout more than 2 hours (haha…well, we need to know the whereabouts right) and many more. And I had become insomnia last night.

I know blog. It is me to be blamed. Haha… I’ll never touch extreme mocha aanymore but mocha still ok, I think. Haha…

Smile

Dear blog,

only one word for today. Good. Yes, i feel good for this second. but, i will not know what will happen later. Will i be in the same mood after seeing my SV and my co-SV?? huhu...

haha...this is a totally super super super crap entry

Sleeping panda?

dear blog, it's 10pm and im already sleepy. im typing this n3 while listening to the piala pidato perdana menteri where all of them were international participants and have to deliver their speech in bahasa malaysia. well, im not interested at all in telling 'bout the competition...ahaha.

my planning for this night is to continue my reading but it didnt work that way. ive done something else which was not in my planning at all. so, that's what we called flexible, isn't it ;) To fall asleep while reading someone else book, or articles or what ever is something that could be considered normal, but what if we fall asleep while reading our OWN thesis?? haha...that do happened to me. i was reading through my thesis last night and without any notice, i was fast asleep until my sister switch off the light. i dunno how the examiners bear to read through all the contents as the writer itself cudnt hang with it even a few minutes..okay, that's so harsh...i'll put it 'bout an hour.

something good i think happened this morning. as i was doing my usual jogging early this morning, my hp rang. it was weird for somebody to call me early in this morning (except for hariss, who wouldn't even bother at what time she called...haha. blog, im 150% sure that she's not reading this as she doesnt even know bout this blog :P) It was someone from Helwa Terengganu. She introduced herself as Kak Nor. She was asking whether im already in Terengganu or still in UPM. Since i told her im still in UPM and will be there soon, she immediately ask me whether i have a house to rent, do i have somebody to pick up me later and lots of more. it was so nice. i have this good feeling that im not going to be alone in Terengganu. and im going to contribute something there for Islam's sake, insyaAllah ;) I want to be someone useful and reliable (hoho...im in a high motivation mode right now:p )

tomorrow im going to have a date with mun chieng ;) We'll be going to the aussie edu fair in Seri Pacific Hotel. mun chieng offered herself to drive but both of us dont have any idea the route to get there. so, we just have to go by LRT for tomorrow :( We wanna bring u too blog. but u dont have legs to walk. so, we couldn't bring u and it's hot nowadays. blog, if someday u can walk (which is totally impossible) and i emphasized again, IF someday u can walk,
dont walk behind me, i dont want u to be my follower
dont walk infront of me, i dont want u to be my leader
but do walk besides me, i just want u to be my friend...

haha...sweet isnt it blog...

bye2 blog for now. im refresh back after this rambling talk stuff :p

Some pictures during nawwar's wedding

here are some pictures during nawwar's wedding...


pic with aini alias. my oily face turns to be super oily after the lost journey..ehehe


nawwar was so gorgeous ;0


aini was so happy...


met with old friends


me n friends....

Gimme a break

hohoho...sounds like im facing a truly hectic life. well, it just for the last 2 days :p. I had 2 days of Viva Voce workshop on last 27 & 28th February (ahaha..yes, just yesterday). the workshop was held from morning until evening. since i already promised my friend to attend one of my ex-classmate wedding on the 27th, it is so improper to break the promise. so, i just went half day for the 1st day workshop and rushed back home, get dressed up, waited for my friend and vroom straight away to the wedding (and got sesat too...i hate klang's road!!) Imagine the heat, the confusion state (where was the place for my god sake), it really gave me the dizziness. but soon after we arrived, all the headache fade away. it was so nice to see back my old friends. it was just nice and i really meant it :) We took some pictures, snap here, snap there n of course snap the pengantin which was so sweeeeett. if i have time, i'll upload it. yes, if i have time. ehehe...

for the 2nd day workshop, i come a bit late since i promised my SV to help my juniors doing the health screening event. me and raihana handled the consultation part since we were the experts...haha. nonsense. it was totally because we were seniors and have more experiences. so, i was there until 11am and rushed back for the viva workshop.

the viva workshop really helps a lot. seriously, i will regret if i didn't attend this workshop. it provides a valuable insight of what do we actually need to be prepared before the viva. it taught me how to do the oral presentation, the skills to present, the slides to used, the duration of time provided, the skills to respond to questions we know and we dont know, the attire during viva and lots more. i'm 50% prepared now. haha...another 50% remaining is for me to finish up my slides, read thoroughly my thesis, mock viva with my committee...i think my viva will be coming soon since i've already got a report from my external examiner and just waiting for my internal examiners reports' to come...and walla...viva will be there.

p/s: viva here do not refer to the perodua car kay. huh...some of my friends thought i was happily eagerly waiting for a viva car (-_-!!). viva here means viva voce. it's like an oral interview done between u and some of the academician appointed to be your examiners. u will be asked a lot of questions regarding your research. i hope u get an idea about it :)

until now. bye bye blog

Here i come

dear blog, u wanna know something. u dont wanna know? no, u must listen whether u like it or not. hehehe....cause u are one of the closest buddy i have, so listen please.

oh...1 month left. i will really miss home. i will know that for sure. im going to a kinda-new place for me. im gonna really miss mom and dad (grow up asma'). i've never been away as far as this. is it so far? haha...not at all. that's the number 1 reason why all my schooling was around selangor state only :p. but i longed that place im gonna go. i love the environment...sea wave, birds chipping, sun set in evening, blue ocean sea, fisherman, coconuts tree and new friends. and i always pray that i will love the new workplace. im eager to go now.

so, here i come....

Terengganu

miss my lil bro

haha...i kinda feel miss him a bit. my second younger brother, huzaifah, went to MRSM yesterday. and i feel kinda lonely. cause there's nobody i can yell at...oh, i still have my youngest brother to fight with...hehe.

my parents were the happiest as soon as he was offered that. i can see through their faces...alhamdulillah my dad dreams to see at least one of his son to be a hafiz, may come true. huzaifah will be studying in MRSM Gemencheh which offers the ulul albab program. they will be studying academic courses and also hafaz al-quran on the same time. he was the first batch. insyallah, u can do it huzaifah.

I hope it's not late to...

Wish "Happy New Year".... what's your new year revolution? i have a lot...hoho. it's because i kept carrying the old ones T_T

Hoho...

just in case...well, just in case u went all day gloomy (or not all...) after receiving quite disappointed feedback from journal reviewers...here's a funny one to keep u motivated again...

Sample Cover Letter for Journal Manuscript Resubmissions
by Roy F. Baumeister
Dear Sir, Madame, or Other:

Enclosed is our latest version of Ms # 85-02-22-RRRRR, that is, the re-re-re-revised revision of our paper. Choke on it. We have again rewritten the entire manuscript from start to finish. We even changed the goddamn running head! Hopefully we have suffered enough by now to satisfy even you and your bloodthirsty reviewers.

I shall skip the usual point-by-point description of every single change we made in response to the critiques. After all, it is fairly clear that your reviewers are less interested in details of scientific procedure than in working out their personality problems and sexual frustrations by seeking some kind of demented glee in the sadistic and arbitrary exercise of tyrannical power over helpless authors like ourselves who happen to fall into their clutches. We do understand that, in view of the misanthropic psychopaths you have on your editorial board, you need to keep sending them papers, for if they weren't reviewing manuscripts they'd probably be out mugging old ladies or clubbing baby seals to death. Still, from this batch of reviewers, C was clearly the most hostile, and we request that you not ask him or her to review this revision. Indeed, we have mailed letter bombs to four or five people we suspected of being reviewer C, so if you send the manuscript back to them the review process could be unduly delayed.

Some of the reviewers' comments we couldn't do anything about. For example, if (as review C suggested) several of my recent ancestors were indeed drawn from other species, it is too late to change that. Other suggestions were implemented, however, and the paper has improved and benefited. Thus, you suggested that we shorten the manuscript by 5 pages, and we were able to accomplish this very effectively by altering the margins and printing the paper in a different font with a smaller typeface. We agree with you that the paper is much better this way.

One perplexing problem was dealing with suggestions #13-28 by Reviewer B. As you may recall (that is, if you even bother reading the reviews before doing your decision letter), that reviewer listed 16 works that he/she felt we should cite in this paper. These were on a variety of different topics, none of which had any relevance to our work that we could see. Indeed, one was an essay on the Spanish-American War from a high school literary magazine. The only common thread was that all 16 were by the same author, presumably someone whom Reviewer B greatly admires and feels should be more widely cited. To handle this, we have modified the Introduction and added, after the review of relevant literature, a subsection entitled "Review of Irrelevant Literature" that discusses these articles and also duly addresses some of the more asinine suggestions in the other reviews.

We hope that you will be pleased with this revision and will finally recognize how urgently deserving of publication this work is. If not, then you are an unscrupulous, depraved monster with no shred of human decency. You ought to be in a cage. May whatever heritage you come from be the butt of the next round of ethnic jokes. If you do accept it, however, we wish to thank you for your patience and wisdom throughout this process and to express our appreciation of your scholarly insights. To repay you, we would be happy to review some manuscripts for you; please send us the next manuscript that any of these reviewers submits to your journal.

Assuming you accept this paper, we would also like to add a footnote acknowledging your help with this manuscript and to point out that we liked the paper much better the way we originally wrote it but you held the editorial shotgun to our heads and forced us to chop, reshuffle, restate, hedge, expand, shorten, and in general convert a meaty paper into stir-fried vegetables. We couldn't, or wouldn't, have done it without your input.

Sincerely,

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Aint u sweet?

Hoho..the price of sugar became an issue again ne...well, i dont really have an interest in going to the details of the issue...sugar is sure good to be added into something bitter right. there's a say something like "sugaring the pills..." and many more. so the function is just to wash away the bitterness. but if u can stand the bitterness, then u dont have to use sugar at all. insyallah you will be diabetes-free :). but i cant stand the bitterness!! that's why i must have sugar...and maybe extra...erks...that's no good. for a healthy diet, you are recommended for only 75gram of sugar only per day...so? how's ur daily sugar intake? mine is worst :(. i need to practice more bitterness in my life...ekeke. well, there's a plant called stevia. click the name if u wanna know more on it.



This stevia has garnered attention with the rise in demand for low-carbohydrate, low-sugar food alternatives. Medical research has also shown possible benefits of stevia in treating obesity and high blood pressure (source: wikipedia).

wow, that's great ne. but why on earth did we not use it?? japan had used it a long time ago. well, the answer was that it was banned in US in year 1991. it was said to have toxin and has a mutagen presence. but it was controversial and was debated. however, recently, in December 2008, the FDA gave a "no objection" approval for GRAS status to Truvia (developed by Cargill and The Coca-Cola Company) and PureVia (developed by PepsiCo and the Whole Earth Sweetener Company, a subsidiary of Merisant), both of which are wholly-derived from the Stevia plant (source: wikipedia). since japan had used it a long time ago, and had no issues with obesity (the worldwide phenomena of diet-related disease), why dont we have a try??

but, somehow it may have an impact to the US since they are currently the world largest sugar tradeholder. hoho...think about it....