Love is in the air

And the more I see - the more I know
The more I know - the less I understand
(Paul Weller, 1995)

Who ever this Paul Weller is, I owe him a salute. I empathy his sayings as I am in the same shoes as him right now. However the thought of not knowing anything is common during this journey. You felt like you are left out in this strange-long-seems like never ending journey, but hey, you are utterly wrong there. Go find yourself a phd buddy, and yes you know that you are not alone. Sometimes seek advises from your supervisors. They your guru right? (and...you pay them high too...haha. just joking). Seriously that is a joke. Well, money can't buy knowledge (but with knowledge, you can get money...eh? hahaa). This 3rd year of Phd phase sometimes do drives me nuts. The adrenaline-rush that I felt is not because the high anxiety towards my research but the fear of not achieving the target. I am so behind the schedule. Sigh. That's all for now.

Phd buddies out there,
Wake up and don't put yourself happily in that dreamy surreal position :p

Tertutup mata

Perlu ke sambil taip betulkan correction leh tertutup mata and terlelap. Sabar je lah. Ape yang aku mengantukkan sangat sejak dua hari lepas pun aku tatau. Waktu-waktu peak mengantuk adalah pada pagi masuk opis, kol 2 lepas solat dan jap gi ni, ptg karang ngntuk lg ni. Ape yg nk buat? Tnye pkcik gugel, dia kata suh baca ayat kerusi. Ya Allah, yang tidak ngntuk dan tidak tidur. Sambil gosok2 dkt pangkal hidong. Taip blog ni pun leh mengantuk!! Macam mane ni????? Oh luqman dpt tawaran DQ... hihi. Alhamdudillah rezeki dia. Kakak dia plak masih kat takuk lama. Pedihnya mata tahan ngntuk :(

Ngntuk

I am so dead! I have lots and lots of things unfinished but I still have the nerve to feel sleepy. I know that I can't put the blame to others but still the weather kinda have a pollutant effect on me. My eyes were that kind of garfield. apela aku merepek ni kan. dahla... nk smbng keje. n3 kali sgt merepek... hikhaha.

Silent monologue

Do you guys have any idea what I am currently doing now?

I'm running in rain while facing an uphill battle. I got myself lost again in the world of unknown. Please Ya Allah. Give me strength. I am totally lost. Sometimes it just that I felt I am left alone in this unknown world. It's 2013 already. Oh my. My previous vision in 2012 was not yet accomplished and now it's 2013! Well, looking to the bright side, is that I don't have to push my mind finding a new resolution. I just need to use the same old one. Well, let me put it back unless I tend to forget my own so-called vision;

#1 Finish PhD on time (I can't bear to stay any longer despite the shopping spree that I could not resist. The weather is too way hard for me to handle)

#2 Recite Al-Quran a page a day at least, and with translation too. Please? Just a page Asma'.

#3 Write anything in English a paragraph a day. An academic writing would be preferable

#4 Do good deeds (anything...)

#5 Hafaz/Murajaah Juz Amma

#6 Exercise everyday/situp everyday

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so that's the most priority thing to be accomplished. I wish all the best to you guys too. My family missed me, so do I :(