To u that i heart most

mom n dad,

sorry to make u sad
sorry to burden u
sorry to talk back
sorry to make you unpleasant
sorry...sorry...sorry
forgive me....

i don't know how much time left for us

but,
I'll never ever will give up
and will always try to make both of u happy

mom n dad,

sorry again to make u sad
I meant it
I know eventho' both of u never mention 'bout it
I am truly sorry
I am sorry mom
I am sorry dad


mom n dad,

i .........
me ......

and,
i,
love both of u from the bottom of my heart :(




silent monologue,
running in rain while facing an uphill battle (end march, 2010)

A deep sorrow

Wow...the title is too spooky for me. And it seems so not me. haha... Blog, i have a lot to share as lots of things had happened this past few days. But i don't know where to start.

well, lets begin with story 1;

Sorrow. That's the best word to describe myself right now. Why? I don’t know myself blog. My dear close friend, Hariss, had came last Friday and slept over for two days at my house (I mean my parents’ house :P). We went shopping on Saturday and I was surprised by a gift she gave me. There was this department full of branded handbags and I just have this window-shopping-glancing through all over these handbags. Suddenly, Hariss came to me and asked which one I like the most? Well, without a thought, I just pointed out straight to a lovely maroon handbag. And u know what blog, she said I’ll give it to you as a present. I was shocked. I don’t know what to say. I love the bag but I don’t know whether to say yes or not. Ahaha… well, of course I had said yes. Ahaha… She said it was a gift for me as I will start working soon. Thanks Hariss. You’re the best buddy I have and I heart you. Frankly speaking, I’ll be missing all my friends here and I don’t know whether I’ll survive at my new place or not. But life must go on. I can’t just sit in this comfort zone!!

HEY me!! what's the connection between sorrow and the story above??? *sigh*

Blog, I'll continue later. I suddenly lost the mood to write. AGAIN, this is a totally crap entry.

Mocha dear? Err... no thanks

I learnt my lesson. Use you’re brain and don’t let you’re saliva makes the decision. If u can’t bear with heavy caffeine what more if it is an extreme mocha.

Yesterday afternoon was super extremely hot. I was extremely thirsty and exhausted too. While waiting for my poster to be printed, I thought of having myself some cold stuffs. Just a few walks a step; I saw this super delicious beverages café. There were a lot of choices. You just name it. Everything was nice. I don’t know which want to choose. Without noticing, I already had myself enjoying this yummy extreme mocha. Yeah…it is the extreme one. I had no idea at all why on the earth did I choose that one. Not that the café doesn’t have fruit juices or soft drinks, it’s just my saliva. Blaming my saliva…hahaa. And that evening, I caught myself a really bad headache. I swallowed the panadol but still the pain was there. I knew that heavy caffeine is one of my food taboos, it is just that I can’t stand the whipped cream which was waving happily to me :p

And there you go, I can’t sleep that night until 4 something. I’ve done sort of things, zikr, read the lost symbol (which was only a page until I knew that I don’t have any idea what I was reading about), surf internet, discussed politics with huda bout more than 2 hours (haha…well, we need to know the whereabouts right) and many more. And I had become insomnia last night.

I know blog. It is me to be blamed. Haha… I’ll never touch extreme mocha aanymore but mocha still ok, I think. Haha…

Smile

Dear blog,

only one word for today. Good. Yes, i feel good for this second. but, i will not know what will happen later. Will i be in the same mood after seeing my SV and my co-SV?? huhu...

haha...this is a totally super super super crap entry

Sleeping panda?

dear blog, it's 10pm and im already sleepy. im typing this n3 while listening to the piala pidato perdana menteri where all of them were international participants and have to deliver their speech in bahasa malaysia. well, im not interested at all in telling 'bout the competition...ahaha.

my planning for this night is to continue my reading but it didnt work that way. ive done something else which was not in my planning at all. so, that's what we called flexible, isn't it ;) To fall asleep while reading someone else book, or articles or what ever is something that could be considered normal, but what if we fall asleep while reading our OWN thesis?? haha...that do happened to me. i was reading through my thesis last night and without any notice, i was fast asleep until my sister switch off the light. i dunno how the examiners bear to read through all the contents as the writer itself cudnt hang with it even a few minutes..okay, that's so harsh...i'll put it 'bout an hour.

something good i think happened this morning. as i was doing my usual jogging early this morning, my hp rang. it was weird for somebody to call me early in this morning (except for hariss, who wouldn't even bother at what time she called...haha. blog, im 150% sure that she's not reading this as she doesnt even know bout this blog :P) It was someone from Helwa Terengganu. She introduced herself as Kak Nor. She was asking whether im already in Terengganu or still in UPM. Since i told her im still in UPM and will be there soon, she immediately ask me whether i have a house to rent, do i have somebody to pick up me later and lots of more. it was so nice. i have this good feeling that im not going to be alone in Terengganu. and im going to contribute something there for Islam's sake, insyaAllah ;) I want to be someone useful and reliable (hoho...im in a high motivation mode right now:p )

tomorrow im going to have a date with mun chieng ;) We'll be going to the aussie edu fair in Seri Pacific Hotel. mun chieng offered herself to drive but both of us dont have any idea the route to get there. so, we just have to go by LRT for tomorrow :( We wanna bring u too blog. but u dont have legs to walk. so, we couldn't bring u and it's hot nowadays. blog, if someday u can walk (which is totally impossible) and i emphasized again, IF someday u can walk,
dont walk behind me, i dont want u to be my follower
dont walk infront of me, i dont want u to be my leader
but do walk besides me, i just want u to be my friend...

haha...sweet isnt it blog...

bye2 blog for now. im refresh back after this rambling talk stuff :p

Some pictures during nawwar's wedding

here are some pictures during nawwar's wedding...


pic with aini alias. my oily face turns to be super oily after the lost journey..ehehe


nawwar was so gorgeous ;0


aini was so happy...


met with old friends


me n friends....