Sikit lg Asma'

ok, sikit lg asma'!!!

sesikit n3 ini.

Jgnlah jd seperti ini

bunga tanjung bunga melati, 
kembang tujuh di bulan terang, 
tinggi gunung sama di daki, 
di kala jatuh mengapa seorang.

Hari ni 500+ words

Hari ni mcm tulis agak byk. Sebab dapat support dari mak sendiri yg memang realitinya berada di sisi di UK ini. Yahuuu....


Ehehe...

Haish lama dah x update

Bukanla sibuk apa pun... tp lupe yg ad blog. smlm jmpa sv. kali ni lama jgk gap x jmpa. biasa, tiap2 minggu jmpa. tp sbb demam dan kali ini task adalah key-in data, maka ada la excuse tamau jmp lg. jd smlm jmpe. ad la beberapa perkara yg dibincangkan.


continue jap lg k :)

--- motipp sgt kn nk to be continue

Tadaa II ...

Tadaa...

Ini dia schedule saya yg baru!!


hrp lepas ni saya x lost in my own world sangat. lps dmm ritu, bape hr dah lost track research sendiri.. huhu

Refresh minda and segalanya

Ok... hari  ni update pakai bahasa ibunda sebab PRU13 dah nk dekat. Saya amat terkilan sebab tidak mengundi untuk kali ini.

Ok berbalik pada tajuk asal, saya menggunakan masa berharga 10 minit saya utk update blog ni. Saya nk bgtau yg saya nk refresh (maaf terpaksa menggunapakai bahasa inggeris) semua jadual perjalanan phd saya di saat ini. Saya ingin lebih fokus pada matlamat saya. Allah juga dalam surah at-taghabun telah berkata kepada org islam supaya refresh balik iman mereka. kalo diikutkan surah at-taghabun adalah surah madaniyyah iaitu surah yg diturunkan di madinah. dan surah madaniyyah adalah surah yang diturunkan slps revelation, rasullullah berhijrah di madinah.

2/3 daripada al-quran adalah surah makiyyah dan 1/3 adalah madaniyyah. makiyyah adalah more kepada aqidah. manakala madaniyyah adalah lebih kepada perlembagaan Islam. tetapi mengapa di surah at-taghabun, surah madaniyyah Allah menekankan lagi akidah umat Islam?

dan ketika itu, di madinah, sesiapa yang ingin masuk islam lebih mudah, tiada seksaan atau apa apa penindasan jika dibandingkan ketika pemelukan Islam di mekah. jd ada yang take for granted atas pelbagai sebab. mcm setengah2 kita jgk sekarang, take for granted, sbb agama diwarisi. Jd ada dikalangan merekan, iman mereka tidak sekuat mana. Maka Allah turunkan ayat ini. Sebagai refresher. Haih apa ya refresher dlm bahasa melayu. Even kadang2 dlm kehidupan normal kita, kalo tak diberi peringatan yang baru kita lali dan leka. kdg2 bila kita dpt hadiah baru, kite duk la telek hadiah baru banding ngn hadiah2 yang dh lama kan. maka Allah lebih mengetahui sifat hambaNya, maka Allah datangkan surah at-taghabun sbg refresher utk org Islam! Wallahualam.

Eh berbalik pada topik asal. Sy akan berubah utk lebih fokus pada phd, kurangkan maksiat hati dan sebagainya. Inshallah. Doakan ea kawan kawan ^^

Sama sama la kita :)

Mengantuk

Mengantuk sgt ni -__-"


nk wat cane eh.

tak tahan  sgt


aduhai :(

Berdebar

Berdebar nya esok jmpa supervisor sbb keje yang buat tahpape sgt. 

eh ni je nak tulis. haha. 

tp nak jugakle publish kan.. hikhik

Writing momentum

I am seriously feeling sleepy right now. I have been avoiding my blog for quite awhile. I am not sure what was my last post was about and I'm too lazy to have a look at it back. All I know is that by this time, I do not have much time left for my study. Even though it sounds like it's end of the world but I still have lots of time to enjoy myself. I think I'm living in a denial world. I have work to do, but I strongly deny it silently. That's what we called it as denying. I do not actually have a thought in my mind what to write. I am writing because I am lack of focus to do my academic writing. This blog act as a sharpener of my thought. Once I get the momentum in proper academic writing, I'll jump back to my thesis writing. I am going to have a meeting back with my internal examiner another two weeks. She wants to see my progress in research. Have I done the as what she suggested. If I keep living in this procrastination live, it'll be like carrying albatross around my neck...

Bahagia yg sementara

Ingatkan bila dh abes transfer makin bersemnagat la nk betulkan tesis. Sekali dpt mesej fb dari adik aku yg kecik kata abah frust. erk. adik aku ckp abah nk skype. haih. rupenya abah melahirkan rase kecewa dgn kemajuan progress phd ku. em. ade juga pro n cons utk mempunyai ayah yg dlm bidang yg sama. dia tahu terperinci selok belok phd. sbb bila bgtau kat mak aku, dia lega sgt bila dh lepas. tp respon aku dpt ayah aku berbeza pulak. tp aku akui aku byk giler kelemahan dlm phd ni. ntahla. hr ni rs down kejap. cepatlah bersemangat asma'. cmpur dgn malas lagi. lagila malas aku ni. byk benar alasan aku ni. asma' kuat kuat berusaha. esok pg kene start balik 500words a day. dah lama tinggalkan. tataula apa nk jadi dkt aku ni. slalu n slau sgt cepat nk down. baru sket dah nk susah hati. yg penting kene usaha dan gigih berusaha. berusaha asma'!

- hambaMu yg lemah

My Transfer Thesis

Alhamdulillah. Allah Akbar.I have passed my transfer thesis on the 8th of March 2013. After 2 months of delay, Alhamdulillah everything went well (even though there'e a massive corrections and action must be undertaken). I had my transfer done in my 27 months of study. That is quite late for a 3-year PhD student. hihi. However, that would not demotivated me to proceed to another stage in a more anxious feeling.

That morning, it was peacefully raining. I slept early the night before and wake up early in the morning before subuh. I perform my prayer. And get myself ready.

Aish penatla nk citer bahasa inggeris. ahaha. nk kene pikir ayat yg best and ade continuity plak tuh. last last tulis bm la senang. ok dah smpai school tu, perasaan debar tu ade tp masih leh control. pastu fhiza, mesej awal pg, kata good luck buat keyakinan lebih terasa. dia suh baca ayat 9 yaasin. aku pun baca. pastu baca segala ayat yg tahu utk kurangkan debaran dan hati lebih tenang, dan lidah fasih berbicara dan tidak keruan semasa menjawab soalan. ok sebab sampai awal pukul 8 lebih, dan viva setat pukul 10.00 pg. jd, sempatla nk selak selak sikit balik tesis. pstu 9.45 gerak g building examiner. debar debar debar.

pastu smpai je buidling examiner, sian robinson, jmpe receptionist. dia kata tggu jap. pastu sv aku, barrie margetts turun jemput aku. hakhak. jd bual bual kosong. dah x ingt bual ape sbb aku dh cuak mase tu. ok, dah smpai dpn bilik examiner. itulah kali pertama aku bertatap wajah dgn examiner aku. hihi. pastu letak sume beg n brg brg, aku kuarkan thesis dan apa yg patut.

nk dipendekkan citer, soalan pertama dia tnya aku adalah mcm mane aku nk dtg soton, dan mcm mana aku kenal dgn sv aku skrng ni, barrie margetts. sv aku ade je duduk kat situ. duduk satu meja ngn aku plak. hihi. meja round table. aku berdepan dgn examiner. sv aku lak belah kanan aku. hii..

ok jwb soalan biase aku leh tahan lagi. skali masuk bab tesis. berdebar dah. ok soalan soalan lelain tu tayah diulas kan pjg. sbb byk sekali. amik masa 2 jam utk sesi transfer ni. ade satu soalan tu aku blank. last last aku minta stop jap. nk mimum air. smbil minum air, aku gigih pikir balik cmne aku leh derive cmtu. tetibe leh pulak konpius. skali dh puas minum, aku xdpt gak jwpn. last last aku ckp, im not sure. huhu. teruk betul aku.

dah habes sesi tu, depa suh aku kuar jap. nk diskas diskas. masuk masuk je balik, dia ckp you have passed. smbil senyum. but with lots of work to improve. ok tu mmg aku akui sgt sgt sgt. sv pun ckp well done. moga ini dpt dijadikan pengajaran dan teladan di masa hadapan.

Ngantuk

Mengantuk giler rs. huhu

Crap of the day

I just want to keep myself looking busy but I don't what to do. So, I end-up by having writing the third entry for today. Haha. It is not that I have nothing more important to do. I have more crucial things to do at this point but my stomach is making some uncomfortable noise. I feel so embarrassed. I had done some few things to get it rid. Unfortunately everything failed. So, to avoid the stomach noise, I have to kept my laptop keypad making louder noise than my stomach. That is why I am having my third entry right now. But why on earth I am not doing anything related to my research? ahaha... by doing I just can write crap without the act of thinking. I am writing crap right now. I can't wait for August. How I wish time fly faster. I wish that I can finish my Phd on track too (possible ke? asyik main je kan...hoho). I hope that I can do well for my transfer. Please pray for me :(

500 words in less than half an hour

Ohoho... I hardly can belief this. I managed to write 500++ words like in just approximately 20 minutes like that. Just a short update here. The thing is that as long as you have the ideas, read some books/journals, and have the points written down, there you go. You just write like an expert. Well, the study is yours. You goreng apa pun, you je yang tau. Kan... ehe



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Writing

Ehem... while I'm finishing my last bits of chocolate-chips brioche, a glimpse of thought came into my mind. I should write it! Yes, that is why I'm squeezing some of my morning time to jot down before I forgot. Just now, I met K Pah. It is not that I met her on purpose, but I really meant to see her. I need to ask her some few questions related to a software. And then we had some discussions about research. The most thing that struck to my head until now is that she wrote 5000 words a day. It is not just 500 words, it's 5000 words!!  I barely can write 500 words but she managed to get herself to write 5000 words a day. That was just really amazing and superb.

And of course, I did ask her some tips. She said that you just need to write. Just write and don't get yourself bothered with grammar or anything. That later can be fixed. The thing is get it written down. And of course, you just can't simply write. You need a box of literature. That is why when you read summarize it in a box or whatever as long as you have it. But don't aim to high. Hee... or you get frustrated. How bout getting start with 500 words a day even though you're already in your 3rd year. Oh my!

No panic attack here~ Hee

Research Method

Tajuk taleh bla sgt.. hakhak. Padahal nk ckp mende lain sbnrnya. Leh lak mase dok wat carta alir leh teringat luqman ngn cuput. cuput lagi lama x dgr cerita. rindunyaaaa kat adik adik. sedih plak bile fikir adik adik dh besar. cepat sgt masa berlalu. rase baru je duk umah ajar cuput bio utk spm. tu tahun bile ntah. ni dia dh habes pun diploma. dah 3 bln kot dia g pakistan india tu. moga sumenya selamat. x sngka aku kakak pada 7 org adik adik yg inshAllah soleh dan solehah sumenya. Amin. -rindu.sgt.pd.mereka.

and one more pic,

Book to be read

Ahaa... got myself a book to read. A book by Sophie Kinsella; Gatecrasher.

... A shoulder to cry on,
a hand on your wallet...

At least I can spend my time wisely on the bus rather than surreptitiously peeking on handsome bus drivers... omo... just kidding. that is so not me!

 

Geget diri sendiri kang!

I am absolutely drowned in my own sleepiness. I have no idea at all why at this point I am sitting in front of the laptop with a Garfield eyes. I am still struggling with my conceptual framework since the last three days. Oh what? Three days. And still with the conceptual framework. Ape la haku ni. Allright then, since my ngantuk dah ilang, jap lagi smbng semula. Ape la bahasa mcm rojak ni. No good, no good.


p.s. hak merindu itu lebih tinggi haknya jika diletakkan pd Sang Pencipta ^^

A new kick-off

Phew, submitted at last. Not my thesis yet. It's just my abstract for a conference. Everything is last minute. The due date is tomorrow. Shame on me.

Bye.

Design concept

A few days ago I was bombarded  with questions on my design concept (exaggerated a bit here, haha... it was a just a normal-plain conversation) . I was told that social science needs to have its distinctive structural of a design concept. I was left puzzled for a moment. Somehow, I began to regain consciousness a few minutes later (exaggerated sgt haku...hakhak) and started to search the philosophy behind public health nutrition. Neither was my friends nor me were wrong. All were significant. In my case, my study does not fall 100% under social science, but, it is a foundation build upon biological and applied social science. Okla, tu je kot stakat ni. Mata pun pedih, perut pun pedih, kite pun smbng kedian hari k :)

Love is in the air

And the more I see - the more I know
The more I know - the less I understand
(Paul Weller, 1995)

Who ever this Paul Weller is, I owe him a salute. I empathy his sayings as I am in the same shoes as him right now. However the thought of not knowing anything is common during this journey. You felt like you are left out in this strange-long-seems like never ending journey, but hey, you are utterly wrong there. Go find yourself a phd buddy, and yes you know that you are not alone. Sometimes seek advises from your supervisors. They your guru right? (and...you pay them high too...haha. just joking). Seriously that is a joke. Well, money can't buy knowledge (but with knowledge, you can get money...eh? hahaa). This 3rd year of Phd phase sometimes do drives me nuts. The adrenaline-rush that I felt is not because the high anxiety towards my research but the fear of not achieving the target. I am so behind the schedule. Sigh. That's all for now.

Phd buddies out there,
Wake up and don't put yourself happily in that dreamy surreal position :p

Tertutup mata

Perlu ke sambil taip betulkan correction leh tertutup mata and terlelap. Sabar je lah. Ape yang aku mengantukkan sangat sejak dua hari lepas pun aku tatau. Waktu-waktu peak mengantuk adalah pada pagi masuk opis, kol 2 lepas solat dan jap gi ni, ptg karang ngntuk lg ni. Ape yg nk buat? Tnye pkcik gugel, dia kata suh baca ayat kerusi. Ya Allah, yang tidak ngntuk dan tidak tidur. Sambil gosok2 dkt pangkal hidong. Taip blog ni pun leh mengantuk!! Macam mane ni????? Oh luqman dpt tawaran DQ... hihi. Alhamdudillah rezeki dia. Kakak dia plak masih kat takuk lama. Pedihnya mata tahan ngntuk :(

Ngntuk

I am so dead! I have lots and lots of things unfinished but I still have the nerve to feel sleepy. I know that I can't put the blame to others but still the weather kinda have a pollutant effect on me. My eyes were that kind of garfield. apela aku merepek ni kan. dahla... nk smbng keje. n3 kali sgt merepek... hikhaha.

Silent monologue

Do you guys have any idea what I am currently doing now?

I'm running in rain while facing an uphill battle. I got myself lost again in the world of unknown. Please Ya Allah. Give me strength. I am totally lost. Sometimes it just that I felt I am left alone in this unknown world. It's 2013 already. Oh my. My previous vision in 2012 was not yet accomplished and now it's 2013! Well, looking to the bright side, is that I don't have to push my mind finding a new resolution. I just need to use the same old one. Well, let me put it back unless I tend to forget my own so-called vision;

#1 Finish PhD on time (I can't bear to stay any longer despite the shopping spree that I could not resist. The weather is too way hard for me to handle)

#2 Recite Al-Quran a page a day at least, and with translation too. Please? Just a page Asma'.

#3 Write anything in English a paragraph a day. An academic writing would be preferable

#4 Do good deeds (anything...)

#5 Hafaz/Murajaah Juz Amma

#6 Exercise everyday/situp everyday

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so that's the most priority thing to be accomplished. I wish all the best to you guys too. My family missed me, so do I :(