Eh.. few days left?

emm.. that kinda tickles my heart a bit.. it's not that funny but emm.. I don't know how to express the feeling..


but, I'm sure gonna miss you ... southampton, uk, sv's, and of course you, and you


but, In sha Allah, this long journey has taught me a lot

as a preparation for a better future world (haha.. over sgt!)

but,

Thank you Allah... deeply from my lubb (lapisan hati paling dlm, selepas fuad, qalb dan sadr )

Lelah

setelah sekian lama tak merasai kelelahan yg teramat, hari ini cukup terasa... entah mengapa hati dan otak berbicara bahasa yang sama... dua dua terasa kian lelah.. akal cuba berfikir dan dipaksa berfikir... hingga rasa terbitnya kekurangan atau ketiadaan langsung daya taakulan.. sesungguhnya ilmu-Mu sangat luas.. aku yang lemah ini benar benar rasa kerdil

Aku benar benar berharap segala ilmu ini didasari atas niat keranaMu..

Moga segalanya baik baik belaka...

Ya Ghaffur... Ampuni segala dosa dosaku dan sahabat sahabatku agar kami tak terhijab dengan cahaya ilmuMu... Amin ya Rabalalamin :'(




7.15pm
Hartley Library, Southampton

Ketinggian iman di waktu musim panas di luar negara

em.. tak taula

nak tau jgk

apa agaknya khabar iman para lelaki muslim di waktu musim panas


memasing kat sini macam takmau nk pakai baju la

Selamat Hari Ummi

Thank you Allah for the upon greatest gift in my life...
Thank you for giving me the chance to taste the love from a mom
I am deeply truly feel grateful for what you had give me.. sometimes I do really take granted for what I have
As I grow up, I began to realize that not everyone have the chance of being loved by a mom
My tears rolled down as I read through newspaper each day, baby being dumped in the most disgusted place
Thank you Allah for not just giving me a mom, but an extraordinary mom
Thank you for bearing with all eight of us
Thank you for your patient
At this point of age, I do often think a lot
How would my life be without you
But I need to be prepared
That each of us will soon go
It's either me or you
But mom,
I will try to be a good solehah daughter so that you won't be accused in hereafter for any of my wrongdoings
My prayers is 24/7 for you ummi and abah



#truefriend

I will miss UK

The memoirs of 3 years and a half months will be missed indeed... Thank you Allah for giving me a chance to study abroad. Thank you Allah for everything... I will always try to upgrade my eeman inshaAllah...



sayonara!!

Learning to adapt with a cheaper skin regime

Since I'm going back to Malaysia in a few weeks time, I had already taught my face to truly accept the cheaper skin care. I used to wear clinique but since I've already ran-out of it, I bought myself simple skincare!! a set of clinique cost me £70 ++ while a set of simple only cost me £4 ++. What a totally big differences!! I had used clinique as my skin was really deteriorated during my 1st year. I had tried so many products that seems not working for me until I came across clinique. From that day, clinique was my bff. hehe... but now, I shift myself to simple skincare as I don't think I can afford to buy it in Malaysia and perhaps my skin will be working well in Malaysia ... (what do i mean by working well??).. but the main reason for buying simple is the result of having few pounds left for these few weeks left!! (trying to get a sympathy.. muahaha.. )


honestly,


I can't wait to get home!!




and with all due respect, I can no longer bear living here

I dont know

In my head right now, I have no idea at all what to jot down. I just simply logged in and push my finger tips to start typing anything. I just need to get something written down for the sake of my friend that keep visiting my blog. I don't want her/him to get frustrated over the hiatus blog entries. Well, basically, I have 2 months left before going back for good. I had over push my limit I think in the past few weeks. The consequence was that I loose my motivation in the last couple of days. But now, I'm standing back firmly. I will try to finish chapter 6 in next week. In early May, do the last chapter. in second week of May, start to do the corrections. Oh, when is this going to end??





Mom, can I just go back home?

I miss you and dad.

MH370

A day to be remembered...

berkenaan post fefeling kwn ku di london

sy kan ade sorang kwn ni ...

sleepy

cmneeeeeee ni!! ngntuk x abes abes


tension la



sbb ngntuk


sedih rase sbb ngntuk


tatau nk psg lagu ape


psg lagu jiwang kang hati berjiwang jiwang plak


psg lagu omputih

bingit plak telinge

psg ramli sarip


sampai terngntuk ngntuk ni


psg lagu nasyeed

terikot2 plak


sbb dh hapai kan

psg alunan zikir

dah 4 hari playlist same kan


hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...


tp sbb dh ngntuk kan

mcm mcm la alasan aku kann


skrng playlist tgh lagu isabella


btw sejak 4 hr lepas duk psg lagu nadamurni

hmm... tak pasal2 aku duk baca bingkisan hidup al-arqam

aku tetibe keliru

aku tak tau kisah sbnr yg berlaku

were they falsely accused ?

hmmm...

was it part of political agenda?

hmm...


kenapa ek kalo tulis blog x mengantuk macam tulis tesis

debushhh diri sendiri


boleh ke aku nk siap mcm ni??!!



btw, kepada bakal suami saya

mengertilah penat nya membuat phd ni

terpaksa berjauahn dgn famili satu

lps tu hari hari mengadap bende yg sama

once dah buat

x boleh patah balik

heavy rain ke, freezing cold snow ke, hot summer weather ke,

still kene harung bende same

tp pikir balik

ni kejap je

eh ape ntah motif ayat ayat ni

tade thesis statement lngsung

berterabur...


ok laa... oh kpd bakal suami

jmpe nnt didepan tok kadi

inshaAllah :)

nk kurus tp mkn byk n x buat sebarang exercise

tangga kejayaan utk gemuk adalah mkn byk dan x exercise... kalo gemuk tu diletakkan sbg target, pasti mudah dn rmai gile yg gemuk... tp seperti biase, utk mendapat sesuatu bkn senang... w'pun bunyi dia cliche, tp mmg benar, utk raih sesuatu perkara perlukan usaha.. bknnya senang2 nk dpt... dah kalo nk kurus, kene la buat sesuatu... ok perkara pertama, control pemakanan dah start buat smlm.. kalo setiap hr melantak nasi mcm x ingt... smlm dh control mkn dgn ambil less than segenggam tgn. plus bykkn sayur n lauk. smlm beli byk giler buah. tu dh start dr dua minggu lepas. sbb slalu cepat lapar... jd biase mkn roti ke crisps ke coklat ke.. skng dh gnti dgn buah...


yg tang exercise tu payah sket... tali skipping dh beli.. x jump jump lagi... squat exercise pun dh blaja.. x pi x buat buat lg... tunggu ape ntah xtau... malas x hengat...

Going to london

Yahoooo!! I'm going to visit London in two more days... I am so excited as I have not yet truly explored the city of London... I have not even have chance to land my eyes on London's landmarks ... buckingham palace erm many more... and most exciting part is the foods awaiting!! lobstersss yummehh... and most important, to spend a quality time with my good buddy ;)

Fear

I am bored to death ... not that i have nothing to do... what i explicitly mean is that i am bored with all these writings.... i am mentally exhausted... i can't wait to finish all these... i am literally tired... please somebody understand me... i am writing this without having any intention to write up a proper entry.. it is just another random crap entry as to fill my gap of boredom..

i am utterly anxious looking forward to april, may and june... see you inshaAllah

Sikit lg Asma'

ok, sikit lg asma'!!!

sesikit n3 ini.

Jgnlah jd seperti ini

bunga tanjung bunga melati, 
kembang tujuh di bulan terang, 
tinggi gunung sama di daki, 
di kala jatuh mengapa seorang.