A new kick-off

Phew, submitted at last. Not my thesis yet. It's just my abstract for a conference. Everything is last minute. The due date is tomorrow. Shame on me.

Bye.

Design concept

A few days ago I was bombarded  with questions on my design concept (exaggerated a bit here, haha... it was a just a normal-plain conversation) . I was told that social science needs to have its distinctive structural of a design concept. I was left puzzled for a moment. Somehow, I began to regain consciousness a few minutes later (exaggerated sgt haku...hakhak) and started to search the philosophy behind public health nutrition. Neither was my friends nor me were wrong. All were significant. In my case, my study does not fall 100% under social science, but, it is a foundation build upon biological and applied social science. Okla, tu je kot stakat ni. Mata pun pedih, perut pun pedih, kite pun smbng kedian hari k :)

Love is in the air

And the more I see - the more I know
The more I know - the less I understand
(Paul Weller, 1995)

Who ever this Paul Weller is, I owe him a salute. I empathy his sayings as I am in the same shoes as him right now. However the thought of not knowing anything is common during this journey. You felt like you are left out in this strange-long-seems like never ending journey, but hey, you are utterly wrong there. Go find yourself a phd buddy, and yes you know that you are not alone. Sometimes seek advises from your supervisors. They your guru right? (and...you pay them high too...haha. just joking). Seriously that is a joke. Well, money can't buy knowledge (but with knowledge, you can get money...eh? hahaa). This 3rd year of Phd phase sometimes do drives me nuts. The adrenaline-rush that I felt is not because the high anxiety towards my research but the fear of not achieving the target. I am so behind the schedule. Sigh. That's all for now.

Phd buddies out there,
Wake up and don't put yourself happily in that dreamy surreal position :p

Tertutup mata

Perlu ke sambil taip betulkan correction leh tertutup mata and terlelap. Sabar je lah. Ape yang aku mengantukkan sangat sejak dua hari lepas pun aku tatau. Waktu-waktu peak mengantuk adalah pada pagi masuk opis, kol 2 lepas solat dan jap gi ni, ptg karang ngntuk lg ni. Ape yg nk buat? Tnye pkcik gugel, dia kata suh baca ayat kerusi. Ya Allah, yang tidak ngntuk dan tidak tidur. Sambil gosok2 dkt pangkal hidong. Taip blog ni pun leh mengantuk!! Macam mane ni????? Oh luqman dpt tawaran DQ... hihi. Alhamdudillah rezeki dia. Kakak dia plak masih kat takuk lama. Pedihnya mata tahan ngntuk :(

Ngntuk

I am so dead! I have lots and lots of things unfinished but I still have the nerve to feel sleepy. I know that I can't put the blame to others but still the weather kinda have a pollutant effect on me. My eyes were that kind of garfield. apela aku merepek ni kan. dahla... nk smbng keje. n3 kali sgt merepek... hikhaha.

Silent monologue

Do you guys have any idea what I am currently doing now?

I'm running in rain while facing an uphill battle. I got myself lost again in the world of unknown. Please Ya Allah. Give me strength. I am totally lost. Sometimes it just that I felt I am left alone in this unknown world. It's 2013 already. Oh my. My previous vision in 2012 was not yet accomplished and now it's 2013! Well, looking to the bright side, is that I don't have to push my mind finding a new resolution. I just need to use the same old one. Well, let me put it back unless I tend to forget my own so-called vision;

#1 Finish PhD on time (I can't bear to stay any longer despite the shopping spree that I could not resist. The weather is too way hard for me to handle)

#2 Recite Al-Quran a page a day at least, and with translation too. Please? Just a page Asma'.

#3 Write anything in English a paragraph a day. An academic writing would be preferable

#4 Do good deeds (anything...)

#5 Hafaz/Murajaah Juz Amma

#6 Exercise everyday/situp everyday

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so that's the most priority thing to be accomplished. I wish all the best to you guys too. My family missed me, so do I :(

WHAT-THE-WHAT???

Naseb la baek x terhantar ayat seperenggan tadi mcm ni kat Prof... baru terperasan ade perenggan mengarut aku yg tahpape. Baru ingat yg aku mengarut buat ni time mengantuk. Bile aku ngntuk, aku pun mengarut je taip tahpape. Tp gigih gak nk menaip. Tak paham...tak paham... (smbil geleng-geleng kepala). Ayat nye seperti di bawah. Slalunya kalo aku mengarut dlm ruangan tesis, aku italic kan.. so nnt perasan yg tu kene delete balik... ini skali x italic plak... mujur x send... haihla labu... dahla ayat englis tunggang terbalik...

Therefore, the study is left untold because the laziness of the author in explaining in details of the causal effect. The author herself is not confident with what she is doing that helplessly does not bring any effect on understanding of the current problem. It is also not a doubt to not help with the relationship with one another. Therefore, again it is highlighted that an effect of a variable does play an important role in adjusting the effect of it. The UPP model is adjusted to make it clear to the readers that all factors listed are well-prepared and confirmed. The need of investigating it as prudent as it should be will be authorised and simply jotted. Subsequently, the next chapter will be informing the UPP and how it relates with one factor to other factors in emphasizing the highlights of the finalized. 

Cuaknyaaa

Adrenaline rush!! like rush hours... omgeee... tomorrow is the day! it is nothing big that will be happening tomorrow... it's just that tomorrow will be the day for sort of Christmas-holiday-travelling like for 4 days... and I'm not that so excited because I have loads of work unfinished!! fainted already while writing this entry... sighhh~

   

Merapu sangat!

Ngantuk sangat! I am so sick of myself. My eyes are not helping me at all. They will get that glue-effect soon after I open my journals. I can't bear with my sleepiness. Please go away mr. sleepy, you're totally effecting my concentrating. While I'm writing this entry, I am still sleepy like what!... Adeh... Masa makin mencemburui tapi aku buat keje macam masa tu banyak je lagi. Aku tatau la nk wat mcm mane. Gerammmmnye ngn diri sendiri. Sikit sikit mengantuk. Ke sebab aku tak minat dengan apa yang aku buat ni. Eh mana boleh x minat. Dah nak abis ni Asma'. Lagi sikit je ok! Hmmm... banyak janji yang tak terlunas lagi ni. Janji pada ibu bapa .. Janji pada agama... Ya Allah permudahkanlah urusan ku dan sahabat sahabtku ... amin.

p.s. ingatkan tulis blog ni bolehlah hilang mengantuk, skali lagi mengantuk pulak. nak wat canne ni?

Jiwa kacau

Smlm kan jiwa kcau la sangat. Tahpape ntah. Nk muntah pun ade bila fikir fikir balik. Aku ni la pun. Sume bende pon nak amek serius. Rileks sudah. Kannn? Tujuan tulis blog pada ketika ini, pada saat yang genting yang tinggal bebrapa hari lagi sblm submit transfer tesis, adalah disebabkan aku mengantuk yg amat. Ngntuk la. Padahal aku dah tido lebih dari cukup kot. Eh mcm nk ilang dah mengantuk. Ape la aku ni. Tulis blog boleh la pulak x ngntok. Apela n3 aku kali ini. Sgt mcm tahpape. Langsung x nmpak keilmiahannya.

haih... nk cari imej pun amek mase 10 min dah. cepatla jmpe imej .... abes dh mase aku nih.

"kalau setiap saat yang diingat hanya kekasih hati, bilakah masa untuk mengingat Allah taala? mabuk cinta boleh buat manusia buta untuk melihat kebenaran, lupa kepada perkara yang lebih penting selain cinta. bukankah hidup ini sarat dengan visi dan misi yang harus dipikul? kalau hari-hari diisi dengan khayalan , kisah cinta romantik, lagu dan muzik yang memuja kekasih, tenggelam dalam fantasi yang melalaikan, melemahkan sendi-sendi, dan membiarkan fikiran melayang-layang tanpa arah, apakah kita layak dipanggil hamba Allah atau hamba cinta? " - artikel

Wahai blogger... dengarkanlah

Dah lama rasaenya x menulis dalam english... bkn tanak tulih dalam english tp takut x biase dh menulis dlm bahasa melayu... tuhdiaa gedik sungguhla aku. dulu konon konon buat blog sbb nk asah bakat yg x terpendam sbb mmg tade bakat yg nk dipendamkan pon utk mantapkan penggunaan bhs english. since dh duk UK, kene biasakan ckp melayu dalam blog plak. ptuihh... bajet sungguh la aku. padahal lagi byk ckp melayu kot aku rase banding mase time duduk kuala terengganu. hahha... bajet lg skali. gaya dok tggnu cakap english la sangat kan. sbb aku tade member seangkatan nk ckp pasal research aku ni, aku dgn rase rendah hati nk citer dkt blog aku je lah ok.

ok, mcm ni ye pkcik blog. eh?? npe pkcik ek? abaikan. kalo aku laki, sah sah aku pnggil dia mkcik tp sbb aku pompuan aku pnggil dia pkcik. eleh takkan korang tatau pasal women-men ethics in blogging. erk? ok penulis sesuke hati buat athic rules sendiri kan. main point aku x masuk lagi, xpi aku dah byk mengarut. kalo dpn sv, terus direct masuk research tade nk main korner pusing pusing jauh. straight to the point.

kajian aku skrng pasal nk develop satu food classification yg baru utk malaysia la. knp plak utk malaysia? sbb sah sah aku warganegara malaysia kenala aku buat utk malaysia takkan aku nk buang duit kerajaan develop utk negara lain plak kan. baik aku fokus utk malaysia dan at least malaysia dpt benefit atas apa yg aku buat tu asa hadapan. benefit sgt ke?? haha... bajet je kan. knp lak aku kene bersusah payah nk develop yg baru, yg sedia teruk sgt ka atau tadek langsung? dan perlu ke ade food classification ni? cube habaq mai...

susah gak nk habaq mai lagu tu je.

makanan bkn kompleks beb. bkn leh belasah selesai mcm tu je. pertama skali, aku nk develop satu nutrition education approach yg leh bantu bimbing org ke arah kebenaran makanan yg betul. dalam Islam, manusia perlukan Al-Quran utk bimbing ke arah jln yg kebenaran, 'ihdinas siratul mustaqim'. begitu juga dlm mknn. manusia perlukan guideline. kalo tade guideline payah ar kan. jd soalnya sekarang, tade ke guideline? mestila ade kan. tapi guideline yg dibuat manusia mestilah x perfect. Al-quran adalah guideline/garis panduan manusia yg syumul. Sape x ikot, akan tersasar dari kebenaran. Jadi, guideline makanan yg ade ni, berdasarkan hasil pembacaan yg kritis ade la gap gap.

Apa la gap gap nye? aku tau baju Gap je. Hang toksah nk buat lawak x bape nk klaka lak kat sini. Ok, antara sbb munasabab guideline yg ade x bape nk membantu sbb;
1. klasifikasi makanan yg depa buat tu x mencerminkan realiti apa yg di makan org skrng. hah? mcm mane plak tu. org skrng byk mkn processed makanan yg memang sgt la tade dlm food pyramid. acu ce bg contoh. poning gak rupenya nk bg contoh mknn melayu. slalu mknn mat saleh byk mcm pie ikan la, ayak gas, pizza instant, soup instant, mee instant, dan segala atas muka bumi ni yang instant. jd lagu mane nk classify tu? nk ckp byk mane nk ambil sume? dlm food piramid, tadela dihabaq nk amek byk mane.

dh tu knp memula x buh siap siap dlm food guideline sume ke bende tu? ok, kat situ la, kite kene tau asas kepada pembinaan food guideline ni. Apa foundation dia food guideline ni. okla aku namakan food guideline ni sbg FBDG. sedapkan? ptuihh. sodap ko bondanya. aku siap nanges kot buat kajian ni. nanges bkn sbb susah ke ape sbb aku rase ape yg aku buat ni x significant lngsung. tp member aku ckp, aku kene ade faith pd sv-sv aku. sbb diorang tau kot ni dh ok ke dok. ok la kalo cmtu kan. berbalik pd menatang FBDG ni, terhasil dari satu mesyuarat agong la senang kata. mesyuarat agong ni dipanggil ICN (international conference nutrition) pd tahun 1992 dekat Rome. Kire ni mesyuarat agung dlm bidang nutrition la. Aku penah gi dah. haha.. saje nk ckp jgk. Aku g tahun  2009 kot ke 2010 ntah kat bangkok. ICN waktu dihandle-kan (amboi...taleh je ke guna di..eh aku pn tatau ayat dlm b.m ape) oleh WHO dan FAO. malaih aku nk explain menatanmg ape plak WHO dan FAO tu. tnye je pkcik gugel k. tgk aku gune pkcik gak utk refer pd gugel (google).

Ok dari situ diorang kata nk ada kenalpasti dan pada masa yg sama galakkan, strategi dan pelan utk membaikpulih nutrisi dan pemakanan seluruh negara. Dan, diorang adopted (eh... apehal gune english lak...) gol dari "The World Declaration and Plan of Action for Nutrition).


Ok sblm aku pi jauh terangkan gol gol World Declaration tu, ade baiknya ku publish sket dulu. kang aku karang penuh, hangpa malaih nk baca lak kan.

Baru sedaq na...

Dah berkurun gak paper master dedulu dh accepted tp x sangka lak leh masuk pubmed. masuk pubmed hokey... dah rase nk pengsan. kalo masuk nature, lg mennages kot.

kalo teringin nk tgk, click di sini :)

pastu ade lg satu masuk dalam himpunan malaysian jurnal. click di sini jika nk tgk la... klik here. ok la tu kan. hihi. patotla pelik mane mane bdk bdk ni dpt jurnal jurnal aku. bru aku sedar... at least ade rupenye kegunaan paper aku tuh..


Tu je la pon nk bgtau. Sibukla pasal master nye paper, phd nye dh malas n x bape nk produktif. Haihhhh....

Paris Aku datang

Wah wah lepas g santorini g paris pulak.. smpat plak la kan tgh tgh byk keje. so g paris dlm satu hari je. sgt sgt berbaloi dan best. satu hari pun dh cukup utk pusing pusing keliling paghiii a.k.a paris. gi la eiffel tower, notre dame, opera house, lafayet dan mcm mcm lagi. haha.. tu je la kot. motif sgt citer pendek tu je. ahaha... almaklumla bz wat phd kan... ahaha. tp yg best trip tu sbb kwn kwn yg pi best sgt! nnt la citer lg pnjng. bajet je. padahal takkan tulih dah pasai ni dah. ambe letak sekeping gmbr paling comel je la. ade sket eiffel tower n ade sket peta paris... heheh

Meeting my so-called father in PhD

Through my journey in PhD right now, I have met two superb-awesome-unpredictable fathers a.k.a supervisors. Two different people with different ways of supervising. There were truly helpful until now and hopefully until the end of my journey. Sometimes I do take for granted for what I have. I should use this chance to explore more and learn more and gain more knowledge from them. Yet, I am so immature by just having my leg-crossing down and spending my time happily sitting on the chair. I don't seem to have this passionate love to my research right now. I don't know why. Sometimes the motivation is there, but I end up myself wandering and spacing out. Like seriously Asma'... Adehhh. Wake up laaa Asma'...


So, what I wanted to say was that I'm going to have a meeting this Thursday but I don't know what to discuss about.. gile ape... haiya

Gerak Gempur!

Ingat SPM je ke ade gerak gempur, PhD pon ade! ni haa... detik detik cemas bile dah sampai saat saat akhir dateline

p.s. tapi kosong je kotak kotak tuh.. haha