What the What

i thought that doing being phd is already tough, didnt expect that pre-phd is tough too...sigh~

Im lost in my little world...again.

Yes, I think my theory that i blog during im stress is definetly true.

And now, I totally just want to be a housewife. Eh? haha. What a mundane person I am. I miss homeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....

I hate the fact that I miss home, and my siblings too. We fought if we meet each other but still i miss them. I hope they find their path to glory.... I hope Lina and Luqman will get good scores for their exam. But dont feel down if it's not like what you expected because

1. you're lazy (haha...just joking here)
2. It's Allah wills


And do always remember,
"every cloud has a silver lining"

Zero idea

I have no idea for this entry but since it been left for awhile, I thought of just jotting anythings eventhough it's just a story bout an ant. what the heck im talking about here?? im just staring blankly at this entry. haha. i'll continue later.





But, what i know is that i miss my family so badly eventhough i had just come back from bangi a few days ago :((

I am sick

I am utterly sick of the world

I feel utterly sick amidst the harmony of my country

why??

I dont know the answer too

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Post Eid 2010

I love the me right now

Uhh... I really dont know. My life is totally going upside down now but still not critical that my head would explode at anytime. I am messed up. Well, is it me to be blamed? Was I that dumb not to be well-prepared? Absolutely not! It's all fate. We plan, but Allah knows the rest.

It's all about furthering my study abroad. Why on the earth is it d**n hard to have my study abroad?? Be patient asma' and mind your language please. First, Alhamdulillah I already got the MOHE's scholarship to further abroad. The problem is that it's going to expire by 1 December 2010. For god's sake, cant MOHE be more relevant? Initially I was planning to study somewhere else not in Sydney and it turns out that MOHE didnt approve it.

So, I choose Sydney instead. The problem is Sydney has specific date to commence which will be either in July or March. Since I applied the scholarship in end of June, obviously I cant enroll for the July intake and have to go for the March intake the next year. And that surely will automatically burn the quota i'm holding right now. Ha!Ha! But, I believe that Allah knows the best. So, no worries.

Sometimes, life wont be that easily for us. Challenges, obstacles and etc. will teach us the meaning of strong and patient.

La tahzan guys! This whole world is only TEMPORARY. Be scared for the PERMANENT. And im the one that need to be reminded of that :(

A life without challenge would be like

going to school without lessons to learn.

Challenges come not to depress or get you down,

but to master and to grow and to unfold your abilities

Life is a bit hard these few days

Kinda...

hmm...

Salam Eidul Fitr

Bila ada kata terselip dusta,

ada sikap membekas lara dan langkah menoreh luka,

semoga masih ada maaf tersisa.

Taqabbalallahu minna waminkum.

Minal aidhin wal faidzin,

mohon maaf zahir dan batin

Only 6 days more left

A potrait of mona lisa can be seen hanging high up on the white wall in my dean's office and definitely it's just the fraud one or a forgery made by a local street artist. haha. what im mumbling up here. I surely have no idea what to write down for this entry. What i truly feel now is that i'm sad that ramdhan will leave me in 6 days more time. And I feel I am not in my utmost spiritual mode.

I had already had break in my fasting. I hope that I can resume it back this night. It's the night of 25th. the night of the odds. Ya Allah...Ya Hayyu...Ya Qayyum...Ya Latif.... And I dont know whether I have another opportunity to see the next ramadhan. sad~

Fragile

I really love this song. Have a meaningful lyrics

Opick - Rapuh

detik waktu terus berjalan
berhias gelap dan terang
suka dan duka tangis dan tawa
tergores bagai lukisan

seribu mimpi berjuta sepi
hadir bagai teman sejati
di antara lelahnya jiwa
dalam resah dan air mata
kupersembahkan kepadaMu
yang terindah dalam hidup

meski ku rapuh dalam langkah
kadang tak setia kepadaMu
namun cinta dalam jiwa
hanyalah padaMu

maafkanlah bila hati
tak sempurna mencintaiMu
dalam dadaku harap hanya
diriMu yang bertahta

detik waktu terus berlalu
semua berakhir padaMu

powered by lirik lagu indonesia

Nearly miss my flight

I nearly missed my flight to Kuala Terengganu this morning. Alhamdulillah, I managed to hop in. But all that already requires about 110km/hr of my running speed. I nearly burned up all my calorie intake. I feel like fainting as I step in the plane. So exhausted.


I really dont know whether it's my fault or my dad's fault. He told me yesterday that we'll be going to LCCT at 5.15am. Ok, fine then. But at 5.30am this morning, he's still in the TOILET. Oh my. Since, he's still in the toilet, I also took the chance to go to the toilet too but just for a few seconds (ok...for few minutes i think). And we departed from home something around 5.35am or 5.40am.


I arrived at the LCCT at 6.15am. I rushed to the self-check in counter. But, it was not allowed since it's already 45minutes to the departure time. I was frustrated. I ran quickly to find the luggage counter since Terengganu doesnt have anymore it's counter for check in. To my shock, it was a very long queue. Sigh. I prayed hard in my heart that time for Allah to ease my journey. I headed to the air asia's staff and ask her regarding my ticket. She ask me to queue up. It's already 6.30. so, i just followed and wait patiently hoping that i'm still able to catch up my flight.


Alhamdulillah, it's my turn as i waited for just few minutes. The staff quickly passed my boarding ticket and asked me to immediately go to the gate.


Now, I have to pass another long queue for the security check-up. What-the what. I have no choice but to cut the line. I asked politely to the person in front to let me go through since my flight is at 7.00am and it was 6.45am already. He smiled back and nodded back to showed that I'm allowed to do so. What a relief. As soon as I passed the security check-up, I heard couples of names were announced which included my name too. I ran like crazy. And the running didnt end up yet since I have to ran again to the plane. My plane was on the very last lane at the end of the LCCT i think. That's so crazy. Fortunately, I was not alone running at time. There was about 4-5 peoples altogether running like crazy. Haha.

That was really a total new experience for me. I dont want it to happen for the second time. I hope it'll be the last. Alhamdulillah, thanks to Allah.

Back to work

Time do fly fast here compared when I'm in Terengganu. I'll be going back to Terengganu tomorrow morning and hopefully will be arriving at 7.55am. Haha... sorry dad cause you have to drive me early in the dawn to LCCT tomorrow. And I supposed to be back at work tomorrow.

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I went to PKNS Bangi this afternoon along with my lil sis (but she's big than me :p) and also my mom. We were browsing for some raya stuffs and i end-up buying 2 tudungs 'hijabs' that cost me rm100. Oh my God... My mom said she can get one abaya with that value. But, I like it... heheh. Just once in a while right. I think it's worth it. Both tudungs are grey in color. I just bought the tudung first and i'm doing it in a reversing way. One supposed to buy 'baju' first and then buy a tudung that suits the baju's color. But I'm doing it the other way round. My mom just gave me a small sigh. haha....

credit to: Anggun Tudung
this is for illustration only

I'll have some things to be done tomorrow. First, I need to follow-up Dr Nasir regarding my referee form. Second, I have to check my UMT's inbox. Third, I need to confirm my convocation date since I need to book my flight ticket. Fourth, play FB. Fifth, play FB and etc. haha. Sixth, I need to produce one paper regarding nutritional knowledge and last but not least, updated my own nutritional knowledge.

Merdeka

Tomorrow is our Independence Day! Malaysia's 53rd Independence Day. So guys, i hope we really truly know what independence is all about ;)

Pushed myself to IDP

It's been quite a long time since i really put myself in writing a fully lengthy entry. Well, I'm going to start blogging everyday to get myself prepared for any upcoming English test. I got few minutes here to write an entry since all the toilets in my house is fully occupied. I mean my parent's house. Yes, I'm in Bangi now. The best place ever. Terengganu? Naa...except for kopok leko n beaches, it still cant beat Bangi. I know i'm a bit bias here but hey, Bangi, just say it. Everything is there. Most and foremost, it's the garden of knowledge! But truly it is because i grew up here and i love it here. Huhu...leave that beside.

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Today, early in the morning i went to UPM to see Dr Nasir and Dr Rokiah regarding my referee form. Unfortunately none of them were there. Dr Nasir was on leave while Dr Rokiah went to Umrah. Sigh (this is the firts sigh). Never mind because I already expected that. I left the form with an envelope attached to it. I'll call them later. Ehh..why didnt i call them in the first place?? because i still need to give them the form regardless of their presence. Soon after that, i met Ein and mun chieng. Hehe...my old buddies during my study in UPM. I cant stay long there because I have to rush to IDP in KL. I took the KTM to KL central. it's been a while since my last time using the KTM. It's the first time experiencing the center coach which is only for women only. I arrived at UKM's KTM around 10.50am and guess what, I waited about 1 hour for the train. Sigh (my second sigh). The train to KL Rawang had some problems in Tiroi and I nearly give up and decided to go back home. But somehow, i dont have much time anymore. By hook or by crook, i need to go to IDP to submit my phd application form. the due date is in october. now it is already september. not to forget, we'll having raya holiday and all the stuffs going around, i'm not sure whether i have time to go back home in k.l to settle all this things. so, i waited patiently and soon at 11.37am (look, i definitely remember the exact time as i really hope i could arrived before lunch hour) the super-duper KTM arrived proudly. Huh. With all the people, i pushed myself in the train. Just to note that this is during fasting kay.

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As soon as i arrived KL central had to change to LRT to go to KLCC. LRT is quite ok since not that packed as the KTM's train. Looking at my watch at that time it was already 12 something. Arghh...it's almost going to be lunch hour. my legs to began to tremble. then, just for 3 minutes, the LRT arrived and i reached KLCC at 12.45 noon. It's not there yet, I have to walk out of the KLCC because the IDP is exactly on the top of the British Council building. I arrived at 1 pm sharp. I bumped to this one lady in the lift. I was lucky because she's one of the IDP staff. so, she brought me in the office eventhough it's lunch hour. So, i told her i want to meet with Tina and to my shock, Tina was on leave too. Sigh (third time sigh). i'm the one to be blamed here because i didnt contact her first right. heheh. but i dont have time to wait for her on this wednesday. i have to go back to terengganu. So, i leaved all the documents required as Tina mentioned in her email. Got all my documents certified by the IDP and i handed my application form. Application fee waived ok. So, at 1.45pm I went back home. and i was so exhausted (seb baek x pose). The end of my journey for today. hope for the best for tomorrow. *wink*

Ramadhan kareem

Alhamdulillah Im still breathing until now. I am still here to face this year ramadhan. However this year ramadhan is different from before. It'll be my first time fasting in Terengganu. Last night, I went to Masjid Tok Jembal to perform the terawikh along with my housemates, Fiza and Nora. It was a new ambience. But still,

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