n3 ringkas n padat

alhamdulillah.............

syukur sgt2x pdNya
aku dh lulus ngn minor correction

mekasih umi n abah
adik2
jiran2

time kasih kat SV and Co-Sv
mekasih sbb sume dtg mase viva
terharu~~

thnks kwn2 sume
yg telah byk menyokong
memberikan kate2 perangsang
sayang korang sume

smlm adlh hr terindah buatku
2 april 2010
rase cam melayang-layang pun ade
mcm x percaye pun ade
ahaha...


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aku bersujud pdNya

To u that i heart most

mom n dad,

sorry to make u sad
sorry to burden u
sorry to talk back
sorry to make you unpleasant
sorry...sorry...sorry
forgive me....

i don't know how much time left for us

but,
I'll never ever will give up
and will always try to make both of u happy

mom n dad,

sorry again to make u sad
I meant it
I know eventho' both of u never mention 'bout it
I am truly sorry
I am sorry mom
I am sorry dad


mom n dad,

i .........
me ......

and,
i,
love both of u from the bottom of my heart :(




silent monologue,
running in rain while facing an uphill battle (end march, 2010)

A deep sorrow

Wow...the title is too spooky for me. And it seems so not me. haha... Blog, i have a lot to share as lots of things had happened this past few days. But i don't know where to start.

well, lets begin with story 1;

Sorrow. That's the best word to describe myself right now. Why? I don’t know myself blog. My dear close friend, Hariss, had came last Friday and slept over for two days at my house (I mean my parents’ house :P). We went shopping on Saturday and I was surprised by a gift she gave me. There was this department full of branded handbags and I just have this window-shopping-glancing through all over these handbags. Suddenly, Hariss came to me and asked which one I like the most? Well, without a thought, I just pointed out straight to a lovely maroon handbag. And u know what blog, she said I’ll give it to you as a present. I was shocked. I don’t know what to say. I love the bag but I don’t know whether to say yes or not. Ahaha… well, of course I had said yes. Ahaha… She said it was a gift for me as I will start working soon. Thanks Hariss. You’re the best buddy I have and I heart you. Frankly speaking, I’ll be missing all my friends here and I don’t know whether I’ll survive at my new place or not. But life must go on. I can’t just sit in this comfort zone!!

HEY me!! what's the connection between sorrow and the story above??? *sigh*

Blog, I'll continue later. I suddenly lost the mood to write. AGAIN, this is a totally crap entry.

Mocha dear? Err... no thanks

I learnt my lesson. Use you’re brain and don’t let you’re saliva makes the decision. If u can’t bear with heavy caffeine what more if it is an extreme mocha.

Yesterday afternoon was super extremely hot. I was extremely thirsty and exhausted too. While waiting for my poster to be printed, I thought of having myself some cold stuffs. Just a few walks a step; I saw this super delicious beverages café. There were a lot of choices. You just name it. Everything was nice. I don’t know which want to choose. Without noticing, I already had myself enjoying this yummy extreme mocha. Yeah…it is the extreme one. I had no idea at all why on the earth did I choose that one. Not that the café doesn’t have fruit juices or soft drinks, it’s just my saliva. Blaming my saliva…hahaa. And that evening, I caught myself a really bad headache. I swallowed the panadol but still the pain was there. I knew that heavy caffeine is one of my food taboos, it is just that I can’t stand the whipped cream which was waving happily to me :p

And there you go, I can’t sleep that night until 4 something. I’ve done sort of things, zikr, read the lost symbol (which was only a page until I knew that I don’t have any idea what I was reading about), surf internet, discussed politics with huda bout more than 2 hours (haha…well, we need to know the whereabouts right) and many more. And I had become insomnia last night.

I know blog. It is me to be blamed. Haha… I’ll never touch extreme mocha aanymore but mocha still ok, I think. Haha…

Smile

Dear blog,

only one word for today. Good. Yes, i feel good for this second. but, i will not know what will happen later. Will i be in the same mood after seeing my SV and my co-SV?? huhu...

haha...this is a totally super super super crap entry

Sleeping panda?

dear blog, it's 10pm and im already sleepy. im typing this n3 while listening to the piala pidato perdana menteri where all of them were international participants and have to deliver their speech in bahasa malaysia. well, im not interested at all in telling 'bout the competition...ahaha.

my planning for this night is to continue my reading but it didnt work that way. ive done something else which was not in my planning at all. so, that's what we called flexible, isn't it ;) To fall asleep while reading someone else book, or articles or what ever is something that could be considered normal, but what if we fall asleep while reading our OWN thesis?? haha...that do happened to me. i was reading through my thesis last night and without any notice, i was fast asleep until my sister switch off the light. i dunno how the examiners bear to read through all the contents as the writer itself cudnt hang with it even a few minutes..okay, that's so harsh...i'll put it 'bout an hour.

something good i think happened this morning. as i was doing my usual jogging early this morning, my hp rang. it was weird for somebody to call me early in this morning (except for hariss, who wouldn't even bother at what time she called...haha. blog, im 150% sure that she's not reading this as she doesnt even know bout this blog :P) It was someone from Helwa Terengganu. She introduced herself as Kak Nor. She was asking whether im already in Terengganu or still in UPM. Since i told her im still in UPM and will be there soon, she immediately ask me whether i have a house to rent, do i have somebody to pick up me later and lots of more. it was so nice. i have this good feeling that im not going to be alone in Terengganu. and im going to contribute something there for Islam's sake, insyaAllah ;) I want to be someone useful and reliable (hoho...im in a high motivation mode right now:p )

tomorrow im going to have a date with mun chieng ;) We'll be going to the aussie edu fair in Seri Pacific Hotel. mun chieng offered herself to drive but both of us dont have any idea the route to get there. so, we just have to go by LRT for tomorrow :( We wanna bring u too blog. but u dont have legs to walk. so, we couldn't bring u and it's hot nowadays. blog, if someday u can walk (which is totally impossible) and i emphasized again, IF someday u can walk,
dont walk behind me, i dont want u to be my follower
dont walk infront of me, i dont want u to be my leader
but do walk besides me, i just want u to be my friend...

haha...sweet isnt it blog...

bye2 blog for now. im refresh back after this rambling talk stuff :p

Some pictures during nawwar's wedding

here are some pictures during nawwar's wedding...


pic with aini alias. my oily face turns to be super oily after the lost journey..ehehe


nawwar was so gorgeous ;0


aini was so happy...


met with old friends


me n friends....

Gimme a break

hohoho...sounds like im facing a truly hectic life. well, it just for the last 2 days :p. I had 2 days of Viva Voce workshop on last 27 & 28th February (ahaha..yes, just yesterday). the workshop was held from morning until evening. since i already promised my friend to attend one of my ex-classmate wedding on the 27th, it is so improper to break the promise. so, i just went half day for the 1st day workshop and rushed back home, get dressed up, waited for my friend and vroom straight away to the wedding (and got sesat too...i hate klang's road!!) Imagine the heat, the confusion state (where was the place for my god sake), it really gave me the dizziness. but soon after we arrived, all the headache fade away. it was so nice to see back my old friends. it was just nice and i really meant it :) We took some pictures, snap here, snap there n of course snap the pengantin which was so sweeeeett. if i have time, i'll upload it. yes, if i have time. ehehe...

for the 2nd day workshop, i come a bit late since i promised my SV to help my juniors doing the health screening event. me and raihana handled the consultation part since we were the experts...haha. nonsense. it was totally because we were seniors and have more experiences. so, i was there until 11am and rushed back for the viva workshop.

the viva workshop really helps a lot. seriously, i will regret if i didn't attend this workshop. it provides a valuable insight of what do we actually need to be prepared before the viva. it taught me how to do the oral presentation, the skills to present, the slides to used, the duration of time provided, the skills to respond to questions we know and we dont know, the attire during viva and lots more. i'm 50% prepared now. haha...another 50% remaining is for me to finish up my slides, read thoroughly my thesis, mock viva with my committee...i think my viva will be coming soon since i've already got a report from my external examiner and just waiting for my internal examiners reports' to come...and walla...viva will be there.

p/s: viva here do not refer to the perodua car kay. huh...some of my friends thought i was happily eagerly waiting for a viva car (-_-!!). viva here means viva voce. it's like an oral interview done between u and some of the academician appointed to be your examiners. u will be asked a lot of questions regarding your research. i hope u get an idea about it :)

until now. bye bye blog

Here i come

dear blog, u wanna know something. u dont wanna know? no, u must listen whether u like it or not. hehehe....cause u are one of the closest buddy i have, so listen please.

oh...1 month left. i will really miss home. i will know that for sure. im going to a kinda-new place for me. im gonna really miss mom and dad (grow up asma'). i've never been away as far as this. is it so far? haha...not at all. that's the number 1 reason why all my schooling was around selangor state only :p. but i longed that place im gonna go. i love the environment...sea wave, birds chipping, sun set in evening, blue ocean sea, fisherman, coconuts tree and new friends. and i always pray that i will love the new workplace. im eager to go now.

so, here i come....

Terengganu

miss my lil bro

haha...i kinda feel miss him a bit. my second younger brother, huzaifah, went to MRSM yesterday. and i feel kinda lonely. cause there's nobody i can yell at...oh, i still have my youngest brother to fight with...hehe.

my parents were the happiest as soon as he was offered that. i can see through their faces...alhamdulillah my dad dreams to see at least one of his son to be a hafiz, may come true. huzaifah will be studying in MRSM Gemencheh which offers the ulul albab program. they will be studying academic courses and also hafaz al-quran on the same time. he was the first batch. insyallah, u can do it huzaifah.

I hope it's not late to...

Wish "Happy New Year".... what's your new year revolution? i have a lot...hoho. it's because i kept carrying the old ones T_T

Hoho...

just in case...well, just in case u went all day gloomy (or not all...) after receiving quite disappointed feedback from journal reviewers...here's a funny one to keep u motivated again...

Sample Cover Letter for Journal Manuscript Resubmissions
by Roy F. Baumeister
Dear Sir, Madame, or Other:

Enclosed is our latest version of Ms # 85-02-22-RRRRR, that is, the re-re-re-revised revision of our paper. Choke on it. We have again rewritten the entire manuscript from start to finish. We even changed the goddamn running head! Hopefully we have suffered enough by now to satisfy even you and your bloodthirsty reviewers.

I shall skip the usual point-by-point description of every single change we made in response to the critiques. After all, it is fairly clear that your reviewers are less interested in details of scientific procedure than in working out their personality problems and sexual frustrations by seeking some kind of demented glee in the sadistic and arbitrary exercise of tyrannical power over helpless authors like ourselves who happen to fall into their clutches. We do understand that, in view of the misanthropic psychopaths you have on your editorial board, you need to keep sending them papers, for if they weren't reviewing manuscripts they'd probably be out mugging old ladies or clubbing baby seals to death. Still, from this batch of reviewers, C was clearly the most hostile, and we request that you not ask him or her to review this revision. Indeed, we have mailed letter bombs to four or five people we suspected of being reviewer C, so if you send the manuscript back to them the review process could be unduly delayed.

Some of the reviewers' comments we couldn't do anything about. For example, if (as review C suggested) several of my recent ancestors were indeed drawn from other species, it is too late to change that. Other suggestions were implemented, however, and the paper has improved and benefited. Thus, you suggested that we shorten the manuscript by 5 pages, and we were able to accomplish this very effectively by altering the margins and printing the paper in a different font with a smaller typeface. We agree with you that the paper is much better this way.

One perplexing problem was dealing with suggestions #13-28 by Reviewer B. As you may recall (that is, if you even bother reading the reviews before doing your decision letter), that reviewer listed 16 works that he/she felt we should cite in this paper. These were on a variety of different topics, none of which had any relevance to our work that we could see. Indeed, one was an essay on the Spanish-American War from a high school literary magazine. The only common thread was that all 16 were by the same author, presumably someone whom Reviewer B greatly admires and feels should be more widely cited. To handle this, we have modified the Introduction and added, after the review of relevant literature, a subsection entitled "Review of Irrelevant Literature" that discusses these articles and also duly addresses some of the more asinine suggestions in the other reviews.

We hope that you will be pleased with this revision and will finally recognize how urgently deserving of publication this work is. If not, then you are an unscrupulous, depraved monster with no shred of human decency. You ought to be in a cage. May whatever heritage you come from be the butt of the next round of ethnic jokes. If you do accept it, however, we wish to thank you for your patience and wisdom throughout this process and to express our appreciation of your scholarly insights. To repay you, we would be happy to review some manuscripts for you; please send us the next manuscript that any of these reviewers submits to your journal.

Assuming you accept this paper, we would also like to add a footnote acknowledging your help with this manuscript and to point out that we liked the paper much better the way we originally wrote it but you held the editorial shotgun to our heads and forced us to chop, reshuffle, restate, hedge, expand, shorten, and in general convert a meaty paper into stir-fried vegetables. We couldn't, or wouldn't, have done it without your input.

Sincerely,

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Aint u sweet?

Hoho..the price of sugar became an issue again ne...well, i dont really have an interest in going to the details of the issue...sugar is sure good to be added into something bitter right. there's a say something like "sugaring the pills..." and many more. so the function is just to wash away the bitterness. but if u can stand the bitterness, then u dont have to use sugar at all. insyallah you will be diabetes-free :). but i cant stand the bitterness!! that's why i must have sugar...and maybe extra...erks...that's no good. for a healthy diet, you are recommended for only 75gram of sugar only per day...so? how's ur daily sugar intake? mine is worst :(. i need to practice more bitterness in my life...ekeke. well, there's a plant called stevia. click the name if u wanna know more on it.



This stevia has garnered attention with the rise in demand for low-carbohydrate, low-sugar food alternatives. Medical research has also shown possible benefits of stevia in treating obesity and high blood pressure (source: wikipedia).

wow, that's great ne. but why on earth did we not use it?? japan had used it a long time ago. well, the answer was that it was banned in US in year 1991. it was said to have toxin and has a mutagen presence. but it was controversial and was debated. however, recently, in December 2008, the FDA gave a "no objection" approval for GRAS status to Truvia (developed by Cargill and The Coca-Cola Company) and PureVia (developed by PepsiCo and the Whole Earth Sweetener Company, a subsidiary of Merisant), both of which are wholly-derived from the Stevia plant (source: wikipedia). since japan had used it a long time ago, and had no issues with obesity (the worldwide phenomena of diet-related disease), why dont we have a try??

but, somehow it may have an impact to the US since they are currently the world largest sugar tradeholder. hoho...think about it....

a one day event...

today,
1) finally, i had submitted my thesis
2) met sabariah, my ex-classmate during primary school...we last met when we were in standard 6...
3) and many more...

haha...this is totally a random crap n3...

I'm sailing

an old song...hoho...bringing back memories of old days...am i that old?? im not even born yet at that time...haha

Rod Stewart

I am sailing, I am sailing,
Home again cross the sea.
I am sailing, stormy waters,
To be near you, to be free.

I am flying, I am flying,
Like a bird cross the sky.
I am flying, passing high clouds,
To be with you, to be free.

Can you hear me, can you hear me
Thro the dark night, far away,
I am dying, forever trying,
To be with you, who can say.

Can you hear me, can you hear me,
Thro the dark night far away.
I am dying, forever trying,
To be with you, who can say.

We are sailing, we are sailing,
Home again cross the sea.
We are sailing stormy waters,
To be near you, to be free.

Oh lord, to be near you, to be free.
Oh lord, to be near you, to be free,
Oh lord.

i will be sailing far far away too... (so near yet so far...)