English, not more been practised

Dear All

I know it's just only you who read it... but 'you' means a lot to me.. without you, this blog will just between me and the blog.. no reader.. so pathetic right.. I start to realize that my english has becoming worse since I haven't been communicating in english for a while.. or neither in writing.. therefore, I plan in my mind just a few minutes ago that at least I have to jot down something in this blog once a week.. that is the minimum.. Before going back home, I planned so many so-called 'super-ambitious' plan in UK... like publishing at least two papers, met colleagues in the same field from other university, get re-connect with my former researcher, continue memorising al-quran, ... but the thing is that end-up doing nothing.. I feel super hopeless... People say when you're happy, you should be more productive, but it seems not working for me.. I am worried to death.. the clock is ticking but I still haven't prepared yet for the viva..

Today was the intake of the new students... I can see how fresh they were... so cute and innocent.. but I don't how long that it would last.. the memoirs of me and my friends during our first year came dazzling in my mind.. I smiled abruptly... how time flies... and now I'm sitting in front of a full hall of student... i hope that they will do well in study and more important they will be a good people once graduated.. Good is encompassing all the value of a good individual characteristic.    

Enough said.


I wish all the best for my friends out there... 'till we meet again if Allah's will...

[W.E.L.C.O.M.E]

Yeah... i do love moving from one blog to another. i started with blogspot during my uni period than moved to wordpress than finally come back again. ~homecoming :) . This blog is really gonna be about me and my life. if u expecting something like edu, tech, politics, economy crisis or bla2 from my blog, then u got the wrong blog here. so, do find it elsewhere. no offense kay. here, u just can find myself babbling bout my life only... heheh. simple minded, aint i? haha... well, its a blog specifically for me to release my tensy and practise my english... do bear it in ur mind! i do NEED to improve my english ne.. hope u guys gonna enjoy it :))

Learning to adapt with a cheaper skin regime

Since I'm going back to Malaysia in a few weeks time, I had already taught my face to truly accept the cheaper skin care. I used to wear clinique but since I've already ran-out of it, I bought myself simple skincare!! a set of clinique cost me £70 ++ while a set of simple only cost me £4 ++. What a totally big differences!! I had used clinique as my skin was really deteriorated during my 1st year. I had tried so many products that seems not working for me until I came across clinique. From that day, clinique was my bff. hehe... but now, I shift myself to simple skincare as I don't think I can afford to buy it in Malaysia and perhaps my skin will be working well in Malaysia ... (what do i mean by working well??).. but the main reason for buying simple is the result of having few pounds left for these few weeks left!! (trying to get a sympathy.. muahaha.. )


honestly,


I can't wait to get home!!




and with all due respect, I can no longer bear living here

Berdebar

Berdebar nya esok jmpa supervisor sbb keje yang buat tahpape sgt. 

eh ni je nak tulis. haha. 

tp nak jugakle publish kan.. hikhik

Writing momentum

I am seriously feeling sleepy right now. I have been avoiding my blog for quite awhile. I am not sure what was my last post was about and I'm too lazy to have a look at it back. All I know is that by this time, I do not have much time left for my study. Even though it sounds like it's end of the world but I still have lots of time to enjoy myself. I think I'm living in a denial world. I have work to do, but I strongly deny it silently. That's what we called it as denying. I do not actually have a thought in my mind what to write. I am writing because I am lack of focus to do my academic writing. This blog act as a sharpener of my thought. Once I get the momentum in proper academic writing, I'll jump back to my thesis writing. I am going to have a meeting back with my internal examiner another two weeks. She wants to see my progress in research. Have I done the as what she suggested. If I keep living in this procrastination live, it'll be like carrying albatross around my neck...

Crap of the day

I just want to keep myself looking busy but I don't what to do. So, I end-up by having writing the third entry for today. Haha. It is not that I have nothing more important to do. I have more crucial things to do at this point but my stomach is making some uncomfortable noise. I feel so embarrassed. I had done some few things to get it rid. Unfortunately everything failed. So, to avoid the stomach noise, I have to kept my laptop keypad making louder noise than my stomach. That is why I am having my third entry right now. But why on earth I am not doing anything related to my research? ahaha... by doing I just can write crap without the act of thinking. I am writing crap right now. I can't wait for August. How I wish time fly faster. I wish that I can finish my Phd on track too (possible ke? asyik main je kan...hoho). I hope that I can do well for my transfer. Please pray for me :(

Ngntuk

I am so dead! I have lots and lots of things unfinished but I still have the nerve to feel sleepy. I know that I can't put the blame to others but still the weather kinda have a pollutant effect on me. My eyes were that kind of garfield. apela aku merepek ni kan. dahla... nk smbng keje. n3 kali sgt merepek... hikhaha.

Jiwa kacau

Smlm kan jiwa kcau la sangat. Tahpape ntah. Nk muntah pun ade bila fikir fikir balik. Aku ni la pun. Sume bende pon nak amek serius. Rileks sudah. Kannn? Tujuan tulis blog pada ketika ini, pada saat yang genting yang tinggal bebrapa hari lagi sblm submit transfer tesis, adalah disebabkan aku mengantuk yg amat. Ngntuk la. Padahal aku dah tido lebih dari cukup kot. Eh mcm nk ilang dah mengantuk. Ape la aku ni. Tulis blog boleh la pulak x ngntok. Apela n3 aku kali ini. Sgt mcm tahpape. Langsung x nmpak keilmiahannya.

haih... nk cari imej pun amek mase 10 min dah. cepatla jmpe imej .... abes dh mase aku nih.

"kalau setiap saat yang diingat hanya kekasih hati, bilakah masa untuk mengingat Allah taala? mabuk cinta boleh buat manusia buta untuk melihat kebenaran, lupa kepada perkara yang lebih penting selain cinta. bukankah hidup ini sarat dengan visi dan misi yang harus dipikul? kalau hari-hari diisi dengan khayalan , kisah cinta romantik, lagu dan muzik yang memuja kekasih, tenggelam dalam fantasi yang melalaikan, melemahkan sendi-sendi, dan membiarkan fikiran melayang-layang tanpa arah, apakah kita layak dipanggil hamba Allah atau hamba cinta? " - artikel

How do I look now?

This is my current mode face

This is eventually happening when it's time to read journals

The not-so Ultimate Goal II

Today, I aim to finish analysing all the food's nutrients value. If I still have time tonight, I perhaps wanna at least make a sentence of methodology chapter.

And tomorrow, I'll make a new gantt chart for my study. I need to rush. There's a lot of things that need to be taken care of.

Oh, by the way, the last two days I had went to London and Leicester. The whole journey was nice :) and stomach-full too.

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The end.

Gym, gym and gym

Bye bye, I need to go to the post office to send letters to MOH and Institue of Public Health now so that I would not miss my body conditioning class this noon.

Oh, btw, I had started my swimming lesson just last week...hihi

A random crap perhaps?

Yeah, I haven't been writing for quite a while. And this is so much to do with my thesis writing. Is that still vague for you to relate it with one another? It means that I have not been doing any thesis writing and what more for this blog. Sometimes I feel that I have so much to do that I do not know how to stop start working. This is such a vivid manner...sarcasm. Well, starting from today I have start to put my gear back and go crazy for my study. The thing here is, how well do you love your research? If I'm really that passionate about my research, it'll be 24/7 just about my research. Guys, that's just a metaphor, don't take it seriously. I mean if you have that anxiety towards what-the-what study you're doing now, you won't be complaining. Obstacles are everywhere, it is just the matter of how you deal with it. And seriously, God knows the best for us.

It's March now. I'm planning to at least finish my methodology chapter by end of this March. In April, I intend to write some reports and discussion on the results that will be analysed in this month. If everything goes smoothly, I wish to upgrade my mphil/phd before going back to Malaysia, perhaps around July. Go go Asma'!

A pic of me in the WPHNA, I just wanted to share this; 

http://www.wphna.org/members_profilesAD.htm#aali

Im being too vulnerable

I have lots of works but didnt manage to settle any of them despite the big amount of time given. Sometimes I wonder, why my momentum for my study is still not there? I have done many ways to get to that momentum; I made myself a timetable, a gantt chart, a dummy thesis, and lots more. Neither of them did work. Twice I had asked my sv about the novelity of my research since I doubt on my own study but he always give that kind of good feeling that you can do it. Sigh~ But right now, I dont feel the love and anxiety of doing my research yet. This is so problematic since Im almost a year here stuck in doing my study....uwaaaa

My Weltanschauung

this kind of weltanschauung sometimes bring adverse effect as it give chance to the free thinkers to believe what they believe...

I love my family

I have a big family and I love them all. I miss them so much

Im just a human

I have a sad feeling today. That's all tht I can jot down now. I feel totally devastated. I had done wrong. Hmm... just hope that I'll be forgiven with my wrong being.

Motivated?

This is my comeback after a 2-month hiatus...cewah gitu. I have been away far far away from UK during that time period and it was great! I have never been that happy since I arrived UK. HAHAHA.... Opps.. I forgot I suddenly have a task to be done right now... Aigoo, bye bye alligator

Blank = Blur = Writer's block?

I'm so in a tense situation right now. I'm still not finish with my work here and I have like just three more days. This is so nerve-racking that drove me a bit mad! So, I end up eating a home-made hot-spicy-curry noodle (instant maggie noodle to be exact here...heheh). I am grateful that I still can enjoy eating!!!

Well, thinking back of those couple years back, all I did was studying and studying. Alhamdulillah I have the opportunity to do that and I don't believe that I've been through all of this. Even though sometimes the tiresome and tiredness of studying do arose, but the satisfaction at the end is worth paying for. The journey towards it already brought valuable memories either it was a significant one or just a bunch of hodge-podge memories. Everything do account in my journey here.

Isn't it great if writing for an academic purpose is simple like writing in here where I can just simply pour my insights and thoughts without any formal writing!

Better go now as I am going to city to celebrate my house-mate's birthday.

See ya.

Enduring the pain

The aftermath of a dreadful trip to Cornwall, I am suffering a massive of laziness that you cant imagine!! Cornwall was great but our timing was not that great....everything was cloudy...the inevitable change of the sky due to the volcanic explosion in the north.


Well, I'm not going to traversed back talking about that trip as i'm interested more in writing down bout my research...eheh.


But I can't help myself sharing my excitement about the Britain's Got Talent final yesterday. I followed the whole episode like I was into it more than I was into my research. I wish I did my research in reality tv show. But just a few seconds ago, I just felt not to share.


Huh? Well do you guys know that US have recently demolished their food pyramid and replaced it with a plate guide? Well I don’t know too IF it wasn’t told by my supervisor. It was officially to be demolished on the 2nd June which happened to be last Thursday.


That was quite shocking news for me as it was part of my research and I was just about to criticize on the effectiveness of the food pyramid and then, it was officially demolished! Oh then it made my research easier as US the world top leader has already eliminated the food pyramid and it surely be followed by other countries too, right? And Malaysia will absolutely follow what US has done without any hesitation. Or is it not?


Why on earth did they get rid of the food pyramid? There’s a lot of justification for it. If you really like really want to know about it, check this awesome link; http://www.wphna.org/2011_june_hp0_food_pyramid.htm

Met him

I've done meeting with my supervisor and alhamdulillah everything went great. He gave me a clearer insight of the vague writing Ive made. He want to see me back in a couple of weeks later. And where am I at that time? Turkey. ahaha. So, what I need to do is doing the work immediately!!